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total foid death
- Sep 9, 2023
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i knew id get stressed as fuck entering a state ive never been in before but i didnt expect it to be actually traumatic. today ive just been completely silent pretty much and keep getting flashbacks to some of the visuals i was getting and it stresses me out. ive had an undertone of existential fear since coming down yesterday. feels like shit.
i took about 120ug at 9:00am yesterday (half of a poorly split tab) and felt nothing for over an hour, and i believe the effects are supposed to start creeping in after 30 mins. i assumed the tabs were fake/under dosed so i took the other smaller half of the tab, totaling the full 200ug (which i believe to be accurately advertised now).
i got giddy af within 30 mins of the second half and quickly started coming up to the peak of the trip. i was very very anxious/stressed at this point but was kind of able to ground myself as to avoid doing anything completely retarded like telling my parents i was tripping or calling the ambulance. at this point i was scrambling to join a call in a discord server for psychedelic users but i had to verify my phone number and i kept typing in the wrong fucking number because ive switched sims 3 times in the last month
anyway i gave up on that and started pming lain on here and added him on discord and he talked me through it in vc. once i got past the come up anxiety i was able to enjoy it a bit with lain yapping about his neet adventures and psychedelics. i was a complete spastic at this point, i have teeth marks all over the edge of my desk from biting it while geeked
i think i left and rejoined the call like 10 times bc i couldnt tell what was happening. also ate some sweets which tasted fucking unreal.
was just talking to lain for hours throughout the peak and at some point my mum came in and i had to pretend to be sober, i think she could tell i was on something though because she went mad at me this morning. "do anything like that again and ill kick you out" type shit (shes lying tho she wont kick me out)
after i started to come down the anxiety came back bad but i was able to tolerate it and felt grounded, so i stopped talking to lain and just laid on my bed watching the pretty visuals, and eventually fell asleep.
woke up this morning completely spaced out and yeah i keep getting bad flashbacks to the trip and it freaks me out.
overall a 4/10 traumatic experience, will probably trip again in a couple of weeks on a much lower dose
i took about 120ug at 9:00am yesterday (half of a poorly split tab) and felt nothing for over an hour, and i believe the effects are supposed to start creeping in after 30 mins. i assumed the tabs were fake/under dosed so i took the other smaller half of the tab, totaling the full 200ug (which i believe to be accurately advertised now).
i got giddy af within 30 mins of the second half and quickly started coming up to the peak of the trip. i was very very anxious/stressed at this point but was kind of able to ground myself as to avoid doing anything completely retarded like telling my parents i was tripping or calling the ambulance. at this point i was scrambling to join a call in a discord server for psychedelic users but i had to verify my phone number and i kept typing in the wrong fucking number because ive switched sims 3 times in the last month
anyway i gave up on that and started pming lain on here and added him on discord and he talked me through it in vc. once i got past the come up anxiety i was able to enjoy it a bit with lain yapping about his neet adventures and psychedelics. i was a complete spastic at this point, i have teeth marks all over the edge of my desk from biting it while geeked
i think i left and rejoined the call like 10 times bc i couldnt tell what was happening. also ate some sweets which tasted fucking unreal.was just talking to lain for hours throughout the peak and at some point my mum came in and i had to pretend to be sober, i think she could tell i was on something though because she went mad at me this morning. "do anything like that again and ill kick you out" type shit (shes lying tho she wont kick me out)
after i started to come down the anxiety came back bad but i was able to tolerate it and felt grounded, so i stopped talking to lain and just laid on my bed watching the pretty visuals, and eventually fell asleep.
woke up this morning completely spaced out and yeah i keep getting bad flashbacks to the trip and it freaks me out.
overall a 4/10 traumatic experience, will probably trip again in a couple of weeks on a much lower dose
