JeremyBentham
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- Oct 6, 2024
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Not the most brutal for me. The most painful year i had was 2022. I was 16 in that year. I started working out and eventually go self improov and all that crap. I became a caffeine junkie and due this i had lots of panic attacks anxiety and anhedonia. Also i guess i started having more pronounced early synthoms of schizophrenia.
But the worst part of 2022 was my parents psychologically torturing me, from about september 2022 to june 2023 they removed all my things, everything. So i would just lie on bed and rot. Maybe have some walks because pure boredom and for about 2 months i managed to get a very old laptop which could run cs 1.6 at 20fps and with stutters. It barely could run youtube vidoes 30 fps and with stutters, horrible.
But in top of all this crap my parents was yelling me yelling each other insulting me and all this shit. Those months fucked up my mind.
But here we go 2024 a horrible year. Im basically withdrawaling of weed since february 15th. All the year. Withdrawal. Also because im a retard and in my birthday i decided to fucking take a strong edible which prolonged the withdrawal.
In this year i lost everything.
1. My mental sanity
My mental issues greatly turned worse due of heavy weed usage for months.
2. My "happiness"
The little was left gone, im depressed for 90% of the day
3. My online friends
Every single one. Everyone. Even my cat is not friend with me anymore and is not a joke.
4. My PC
My cat decided to piss on my fucking pc god damn.
5. My health
I stopped working out and im eating more goyslop.
TDLR
2022 Was my brutaliest year, my parents psychologically tortured me for multiple months. In 2024 all my friends my mental health declined greatly and i lost my pc.
But the worst part of 2022 was my parents psychologically torturing me, from about september 2022 to june 2023 they removed all my things, everything. So i would just lie on bed and rot. Maybe have some walks because pure boredom and for about 2 months i managed to get a very old laptop which could run cs 1.6 at 20fps and with stutters. It barely could run youtube vidoes 30 fps and with stutters, horrible.
But in top of all this crap my parents was yelling me yelling each other insulting me and all this shit. Those months fucked up my mind.
But here we go 2024 a horrible year. Im basically withdrawaling of weed since february 15th. All the year. Withdrawal. Also because im a retard and in my birthday i decided to fucking take a strong edible which prolonged the withdrawal.
In this year i lost everything.
1. My mental sanity
My mental issues greatly turned worse due of heavy weed usage for months.
2. My "happiness"
The little was left gone, im depressed for 90% of the day
3. My online friends
Every single one. Everyone. Even my cat is not friend with me anymore and is not a joke.
4. My PC
My cat decided to piss on my fucking pc god damn.
5. My health
I stopped working out and im eating more goyslop.
TDLR
2022 Was my brutaliest year, my parents psychologically tortured me for multiple months. In 2024 all my friends my mental health declined greatly and i lost my pc.
