Discussion A very in depth explanation of how my autistic interactions go

[lunin7]

I’m gonna give a very detailed explanation, that way it’s easier to understand what I go through.

It usually would start off normal, we would exchange a few words or sentences or whatever, but I usually avoid people after the first interaction because I know that they’ll view me differently the second time we meet up. People usually feel uncomfortable when I’m quiet, but that’s only because I’m trying to mask, because I know they will be rude to me. And sometimes when I’m social and I try to talk to people they give me these stares of disgust.

I could be standing there minding my business and someone would give me dirty looks, I hate when people do that it’s very rude, and they know what they’re doing they’re trying to make me feel ashamed.

I also notice that it’s hard for me to stare at someone for a long time without watering my eyes and I’m intimidated very easily. When people try to intimidate me my body automatically tenses up and flinches. Idk why this is but that’s just how it is for me.

I suspect the reason autists get intimidated so easily is because we don’t understand social cues that’s it.

 

[Moondust]

Are you diagnosed autistic?

Also why do u think theyll view u differently after the first interaction?

 

[lunin7]

Are you diagnosed autistic?

Also why do u think theyll view u differently after the first interaction?

Yeah I’m diagnosed autistic

And the reason why I believe they’ll view me differently after is because they can sense the autism most of the time. I can see their facial reactions or they even pause for a moment, only I know why they do this and it’s because they instantly figured out there’s something biochemically wrong with me

One guy he even started talking to me like I was a child, it was super annoying but I understood why

 

[WizardMelanin]

Yeah I’m diagnosed autistic

And the reason why I believe they’ll view me differently after is because they can sense the autism most of the time. I can see their facial reactions or they even pause for a moment, only I know why they do this and it’s because they instantly figured out there’s something biochemically wrong with me

One guy he even started talking to me like I was a child, it was super annoying but I understood why

If your born from older parents than 35 it can make autism more likely

 

[lunin7]

If your born from older parents than 35 it can make autism more likely

No they were very young

They and their ancestors did lots of stuff growing up like cocaine meth weed and cigarettes. No wonder I’m so mentally ill

 

[lunin7]

@iDONTwannaBeME whats so funny lil bro?

 

[Moondust]

Yeah I’m diagnosed autistic

And the reason why I believe they’ll view me differently after is because they can sense the autism most of the time. I can see their facial reactions or they even pause for a moment, only I know why they do this and it’s because they instantly figured out there’s something biochemically wrong with me

One guy he even started talking to me like I was a child, it was super annoying but I understood why

I mean if you are autistic then by definition you likely have trouble reading facial cues. So why are you assuming that you are accurate in reading theirs?

 

[lunin7]

I mean if you are autistic then by definition you likely have trouble reading facial cues. So why are you assuming that you are accurate in reading theirs?

That’s an interesting point to make, It’s because I’ve identified their meaning judging by how they act afterwards. That’s how I usually pair the two together. Like for example these two fat kids where giving me dirty looks and I could tell it was negatively aimed towards me because right after one of the kids pointed their finger and laughed at me, then I stared them down like the pussies they were, lol they were some pussy little shits couldn’t even look me in the eye afterwards

 

[WizardMelanin]

That’s an interesting point to make, It’s because I’ve identified their meaning judging by how they act afterwards. That’s how I usually pair the two together. Like for example these two fat kids where giving me dirty looks and I could tell it was negatively aimed towards me because right after one of the kids pointed their finger and laughed at me, then I stared them down like the pussies they were, lol they were some pussy little shits couldn’t even look me in the eye afterwards

Do you systemize things a lot and have a lot of specific interests.

 

[WizardMelanin]

Do you systemize things a lot and have a lot of specific interests.

Usually autistic people systemize things a lot and have lower empathy so they can't read people's emotions and feel them as well

So they might obsess over computers cars or some niche interest, but their social relations are bad

 

[lunin7]

Do you systemize things a lot and have a lot of specific interests.

Usually autistic people systemize things a lot and have lower empathy so they can't read people's emotions and feel them as well

So they might obsess over computers cars or some niche interest, but their social relations are bad

Yes I do that a lot, I usually think that certain scenarios will play out the same way over and over again. I’m drawn more to negativity than positivity cause I’ve experienced it more.

As for lower empathy, I might have it. My friend who has autism is usually pretty rude at times and he doesn’t even realize it whatsoever. I can pinpoint when people feel a certain way or if someone is acting rude but it’s hard to actually express empathy openly, it feels fake to do so.

 

[WizardMelanin]

Yes I do that a lot, I usually think that certain scenarios will play out the same way over and over again. I’m drawn more to negativity than positivity cause I’ve experienced it more.

As for lower empathy, I might have it. My friend who has autism is usually pretty rude at times and he doesn’t even realize it whatsoever. I can pinpoint when people feel a certain way or if someone is acting rude but it’s hard to actually express empathy openly, it feels fake to do so.

Although I've heard testosterone also reduces empathy. That's why autism is like the extreme male brain