Depression Anyone else constantly switch between stimuli to avoid articulating too much pain at once?

[ScornedStoic]

I'm constantly switching between useless things like youtube videos and pulling up my phone with no one to talk to or just switching my attention between different things every few minutes so my brain never has the time to rest enough to properly process how much pain I'm in.

It's sort of like zoomer lack of attention span, but instead a deliberate coping mechanism.

Anyone else do this?

 

[Fabio]

Yes sir, I am also a dopamine fiend. It's an extremely pitiful existence. Have you considered internet/technology detox? I have but haven't gotten to try it yet.

 

[Muri]

holy fuck mood its like the moment im off the net negative thoughts just seep in and i have to get back and distract myself to be happy

 

[rainghost]

Yep.

I remember after a life event, thinking, "I don't want to think anymore." I was given a hard time by family for reading and playing video games, and the only thing that let me escape was watching Youtube. Before the algorithm broke and most content started to be 20 min mass produced, unfunny garbage, Youtube was hella addictive. So 13 years later, even though zoning out like this actually gives me more aches & pains than doing something else, I still dump hours into it. Because it's the one thing that lets me turn my brain completely off.

By the way, when I tried to seek help multiple times for this addiction, I was brushed off. One guy even rolled his eyes at me, despite being payed to.. you know.. listen to somebody struggling & offer feedback?

 

[Asylum Patient]

Have you considered internet/technology detox? I have but haven't gotten to try it yet.

I spent one week this year without staring at a screen and all it did was "heal" my dopamine receptors for one day. One fucking day. The next day the brain fog and numbness appeared again.

 

[SoupaSilva]

I spent one week this year without staring at a screen and all it did was "heal" my dopamine receptors for one day. One fucking day. The next day the brain fog and numbness appeared again.

What did you do on the day they were "healed" though?

 

[Incellectual_Anon]

Yes sir, I am also a dopamine fiend. It's an extremely pitiful existence. Have you considered internet/technology detox? I have but haven't gotten to try it yet.

 

[Asylum Patient]

What did you do on the day they were "healed" though?

I noticed it when I turned the pc on. ... when I played some games and watched a movie later it was like I experienced them like I used to in my early teenage years. There was this fascination again. You know like the experience you had when you were in the cinema as a kid you are much more immersed. Again its hard to explain.

 

[SoupaSilva]

I noticed it when I turned the pc on. ... when I played some games and watched a movie later it was like I experienced them like I used to in my early teenage years. There was this fascination again. You know like the experience you had when you were in the cinema as a kid you are much more immersed. Again its hard to explain.

How long did it last though?

 

[Fabio]

I spent one week this year without staring at a screen and all it did was "heal" my dopamine receptors for one day. One fucking day. The next day the brain fog and numbness appeared again.

My hope has been shattered.

 

[Asylum Patient]

My hope has been shattered.
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Maybe internet detox works much better for you. I think there might be more hope for you.

 

[SoupaSilva]

My hope has been shattered.
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Just reduce screen time. I've been trying to reduce screen time recently only 4hrs and not noticed much difference but when I did 10hrs each day for a week I noticed a significant difference until I went back to my old ways

 

[highinhibition]

yes, I have been doing a lot worse for 2-3 months

It has all started when I suddenly got a lot of money from the government, I used to eat healthier and I could spend my day locked in my room without feeling a lot of stress, but since I got the money I started to buy fastfood again (first only once a week but then gradually more and more, now I eat it 2 times a week already), started meeting with friends again to only waste time and throw away money, started drinking energydrinks, failed my exams because of inability to stay in room and concentrate, got a job but couldnt keep it because again inability to concentrate on the most trivial tasks and anxiety, started visiting incel forums again (major downfall), now I even dont have the ability to learn Japanese properly anymore because I cannot even concentrate on things that used to be fun and the lately I also started smoking again...

During the period where things went well and I recovered from blackpill overdose, I was focusing on visions and plans how to improve my life realistically. I used a form of self therapy, I did not pointlessly vent or wrote that I was depressed, I realized that sometimes I have these flashbacks of traumatic events in the past, it helped me a lot to write those down, so I could sometimes identify the trigger of my fould mood. I actually had a system how I would categorize those memories, for example it could be a minor inconvenience that just happened today (in that case it is unimportant) or it could be something very old from the past (in that case I would write it down for example), I also tried to only eat one meal a day in the morning, I would cook it myself and then fast for the rest of the day (I wanted to lose weight and I was trying to improve my health because I thought that there are 2 things that make me depressive but that I have controle over 1) financial stability and 2) physical health - and I tried to focus on things that would improve these two). Also I still would watch porn but I was wary about it and tried to limit myself not to watch too much.

 

[Genbu]

Yes I'm a slave to the internet.

 

[Genbu]

Also where did you find this image?

 

[rottingkyre]

Why are you in pain anyway?

 

[Neet]

Welcome to dopamine addiction. Dopamine detox is mostly cope if you just go back to your old habits after you're done. The only way long term is to switch to less stimulatory habits like reading books, cutting off porn or going full monkmode. Sunlight, exercise and semen retention do help regarding neurotransmitters.