Depression Completely lost in life

[PaintedSky]

I quit my job 2 months ago thinking neethood was the answer to my problems in life, I thought it was the thing that gave me purpose and joy in life, I thought I had found my solution once and for all but now I am even more confused than ever, stange primal desires have awakened inside of me recently and now I find myself at the cross roads once again after already trying more or less all of them...

do I go back to university and get an education?

do I try and pursue an apprenticeship/craft?

do I go find another job and see if I get anywhere?

do I stay neet?

do I just kill myself and end this nightmare of confusion?

I keep telling myself it's alright to be a loser and to just give up and do nothing but it just fucking isn't, I want to fulfill my primal desires and gain independence but I don't know how to overcome my biggest shackles in life which is my autism, dyspraxia and painful memories, I don't want to be a slave to my weakness anymore but everytime I try anything I always end up here, every road I try, I always reach these cross roads, will anything really change if I try to go down one of these one last time?

 

[hikikomori]

my goal is to collect neetbux and be a hermit for the rest of my life, which was always my preferred lifestyle, trying to be a normie never worked out and would always end with the same result

 

[CruxGammata]

do I go back to university and get an education?

do I try and pursue an apprenticeship/craft?

do I go find another job and see if I get anywhere?

do I stay neet?

do I just kill myself and end this nightmare of confusion?

 

[クーロ]

You have a few options
1: read up on philosophy that aligns with your lifestyle to find salvation in your circumstances
2: take the normie route of breaking out of your comfort zone and trying to seek independence through baby steps
3: shut your internet off for 3 months and spend that time rethinking your choices and finding things to do outside of the internet that are still fulfilling. This will also help you quit porn if it's a problem

 

[Maid]

N00B can't handle being a NEET and has resorted to NEETcracking, becoming a product of his environment and falling into catastrophic thinking patterns due to all too familiar pressures. In all seriousness, it sounds like you want change, but if you aren't willing to take the first step or follow your intuition, you can't complain about either. It seems to me that you wanted to test the waters with your current conditions, but you retreated and subjected yourself to NEETdom, even though you can't fully accept it. That's fine, but being a NEET won't fix the underlying problems that persist. Don't force it, because burnout and the familiarities of being a NEET will creep up on you as the easier route.

It also sounds like you're acting more on the primal urge of getting laid, which can help, but don't do things just for a chance at sex. You'll only make yourself feel worse by thinking that achieving this will inherently make you happier. Do things for yourself as best as you can, find some new and healthy coping mechanisms, and don't care so much about the rest.

 

[AsgardTheFatcel]

my goal is to collect neetbux and be a hermit for the rest of my life, which was always my preferred lifestyle, trying to be a normie never worked out and would always end with the same result

You need to be severely mentally ill first. I've been diagnosed with mental disabilities but İ don't get shit.

 

[Levi]

i went back to uni at 24 after 2 years of neeting and i'm doing alright now. I didn't think a loser like me could get a desireable apprenticeship so I didn't bother with that one, never worked before

 

[poorcel]

Some people are just failures tbh, I don't think you are a failure but I am. Life is a race and most users here will judge you if you haven't done X in your life.e