Baker
Porcelito
- Feb 20, 2025
- 157
First, i want to clarify that i'm not a fakecel, i'm a kissless virgin, and long distance relationships are not real relationships.
Some months ago i meet this foid in an argentinian imageboard, i gave her my number and we talked everyday. She is from another city, 700km far away from me.
She is the type of girl that is kinda goth, cuts herself, likes Hello Kitty, plays League of Legends and all that stuff. She is a neet too, but you know, is not the same experience when you're a woman.
You can say she's an e-girl, she has over 20k followers on Instagram, and daily messages from her orbiters on Discord, Twitch and all the normie platforms. Her simps pay her a lot of money for watching a movie with her, or for her to send them an audio message, and other stuff like that.
She gave some of that money to me, so i didn't complain, although i was obviously jealous, and felt like a fucking cuck sometimes. Supposedly she never had a boyfriend.
I wanted to get a job and save money so i could visit her, but she said that i was taking things too quickly. Bullshit.
Eventually, we started fighting everyday, mainly because of jealously, from both sides. I'm not used to relationships, and not being able to have control over where she goes or who she talks to because of long distance, it drived me crazy; it made me feel so impotent and frustated.
We finally broke up, and i tried to stop talking to her and keep going with my shitty life.
It was her that decided to end the relationship, but despite that, she still talks to me everyday, and gets angry when i'm "too dry". She sends me pictures of her bloody legs full of fresh cuts. One time she said: "if something happens to me, don't blame yourself", basically saying that she wanted to rope. I don't know what she wants from me, asides from attention, it's obvious that i will not talk to her the same way i used to before she dumped me.
I'm tired of her manipulations but i don't want to stop talking to her. I don't know what to do
By the way, i have mixed feelings about returning to this forum, because i missed talking to you guys, but i also feel stuck dealing with the same shit over and over again. I thought i was getting better... i guess i'm still the same virgin loser i've always been. Also i'm starting to think i don't deserve to be loved or to love, i guess it's just not for me
Some months ago i meet this foid in an argentinian imageboard, i gave her my number and we talked everyday. She is from another city, 700km far away from me.
She is the type of girl that is kinda goth, cuts herself, likes Hello Kitty, plays League of Legends and all that stuff. She is a neet too, but you know, is not the same experience when you're a woman.
You can say she's an e-girl, she has over 20k followers on Instagram, and daily messages from her orbiters on Discord, Twitch and all the normie platforms. Her simps pay her a lot of money for watching a movie with her, or for her to send them an audio message, and other stuff like that.
She gave some of that money to me, so i didn't complain, although i was obviously jealous, and felt like a fucking cuck sometimes. Supposedly she never had a boyfriend.
I wanted to get a job and save money so i could visit her, but she said that i was taking things too quickly. Bullshit.
Eventually, we started fighting everyday, mainly because of jealously, from both sides. I'm not used to relationships, and not being able to have control over where she goes or who she talks to because of long distance, it drived me crazy; it made me feel so impotent and frustated.
We finally broke up, and i tried to stop talking to her and keep going with my shitty life.
It was her that decided to end the relationship, but despite that, she still talks to me everyday, and gets angry when i'm "too dry". She sends me pictures of her bloody legs full of fresh cuts. One time she said: "if something happens to me, don't blame yourself", basically saying that she wanted to rope. I don't know what she wants from me, asides from attention, it's obvious that i will not talk to her the same way i used to before she dumped me.
I'm tired of her manipulations but i don't want to stop talking to her. I don't know what to do
By the way, i have mixed feelings about returning to this forum, because i missed talking to you guys, but i also feel stuck dealing with the same shit over and over again. I thought i was getting better... i guess i'm still the same virgin loser i've always been. Also i'm starting to think i don't deserve to be loved or to love, i guess it's just not for me
