
durulyevi
NEET
- Feb 7, 2024
- 71
My father, the only person I really loved and trusted, literally died from heart attack in front of me last year. 1 month later, I started High School which I earned scholarship from. As always, I couldn't socialise and I was seen as an only ghost, a non-existent only had a one close friend. But I was a good student and had good grades, which no one really give a fuck about. 4 month later, I was fucking excluded from school because of racism. My whatsapp messages were somehow leaked and yeah, on discipline council teachers called me names mocked me used curse words. It made me so sad and angry, I already had a True Crime fetish especially for mass shootings and school shootings (Columbine, Elliot Rodger etc.) and it increased much more. After that my mom sent me to the psychiatry and my doctor first taught I had autism (lol) but later she diagnosed me with ADHD and anxiety. I never really talked with her about my homicidal and suicidal thoughts which I had even years before the death of my father because I am so scared. She prescribed me some jew pills and I have been using them for 1 year (still i dont feel any positive and negative effects of it), 50mg Selectra and 54mg Concerta. 1 or 2 months later an ugly ass foid with dental braces slandered harassment against me and convinced the schoolboard I was a sexual pervert and I swear to God I have never physically interacted or touched her. Those idiots believed her and then expelled me from school -which is one of the most harsh punishments in my country- and I was transported into another school which I'm still in and still everyone sees me as either non-existent or ugly non-NT piece of shit. School is a literal hell for non-NT and ugly subhumans.