Venting fuck (extremely long useless rant)

[paranoia]

BEFORE YOU READ : the story isnt that interesting i skipped some parts because i cba to type allat but the forum is dead so better than nothing, yes im aware parts of this story sound like im talking to an elementary school bitch, im not

long story, 2 months ago i met a girl through a mutual and we started talking she hmu first, had some small talk n shit

i met her through my friend who randomly took a picture of me, sent it to his girl friend and then she sent it to this girl for some reason ???

the picture was just my side profile which is strong mtn imo, my front is cucked tho so she went out based on one side profile picture which wasnt even a good one, i have no profile picture, no highlights nor do i post stories

the small useless texting thing we had going on was painful, so short i can literally type it out in a nutshell

hi, my friend said i should hit u up, what school do u go to, sends me a retarded unfunny chronically online normie meme, yeah i go there and there, wbu, cool, she asks me if i wanna send the one time view pics (i genuinely dont know how express myself, im not american) and i say "nah" because im a moron, she leaves me on seen and i hit her up after 2 weeks regretting saying that and we start sending those one time open/view pictures

she sends where she is atm then i do the same sometimes w text on it so a convo sparks up

thing is im an abused dog with no actual people to call friends or anyone that i can rely on or trust so i dont know how ts even works, often i would leave her on opened then she would complain to her friend making her friend rant in my dms etc

the pics i sent werent nt at all, sometimes gambling and mostly gym

so yeah the texting part was mental torture and i have no clue why she would keep texting me in the first place

eventually i ask her to, she says sure we arrange when, it was friday night i think and we meet up

it was very awkward and unbearable at times, it would be complete silence for 20 plus mins and i would try my best to say something to spark up a convo

we sit on a bench, still no words, silence and i just ask her to go to a restaurant nearby

we get up, walk to the restaurant with pure silence still going on, she misses the restaurant and keeps walking for some unknown reason and we have to walk back to it, shes retarded

anyways, we get to the restaurant sit down at a table, i ask her what shes gonna order and she says "ohhh i dont knowwww" i said alright, we wait for the waitress to come, she asks for water and after about 20 mins of awkward talk about mutual friends, (not) interesting situations that happened to me and her, she orders something

we keep talking there, sitting for like 2 hours, her fucking friend comes over and makes it even more awkward

fast forward, i take her home with some useless convo going on (obviously)

i hit her up about 2 days after we hung out asking her whats shes doing, if she wants to hang out again etc

she leaves me on delivered, not for 2 hours or something, forever she never responds

so i forget about her, move on who cares it was a one time hang out thing, didnt work out

until she hits me up today, out of nowhere

"heyyy"

i say hi we start some small talk, "what have u been doing" etc, talking about tv shows bla bla

she took her sweet time responding, sometimes up to 30 mins, sometimes right away

so we talk for a bit, not that much, she asks me for a show recommendation, i say you cuz yknow, mainstream popular jewslop

she says "i havent watched it yet because i heard some people say its bad, some people say its good"

so, you can judge me here but i dont think its a bad answer considering im a mentalcel, social reject and i dont have much experience talking to women

i say "nah its great, we will/should watch it together", im translating here so its not the EXACT words but you get my point

she leaves me on delivered for a solid hour even do i responded in the span of a few minutes

i start thinking to myself she isnt gonna respond she tried attention farming from me and thats it

but she does eventually respond

"yeah sure" and hearts my message, im translating here since im not american so its not the exact words but its considered a good thing here, like shes completely down

its around 4am at this point, i dont bother responding and i just leave it on delivered because im gonna respond when i wake up

i wake up after a long ass nap and i dont text her right away since i had to think about what to say

after like 10 hours i text her asking if shes free this weekend and wants to hangout

she leaves me on delivered and as im typing this i am still on delivered

its been a few hours and im just starting to accept i never had the chance and she was just craving attention from neglected social outcasts like me i fucking despise society as a concept and everyone else, the world doesnt have a place for people like me

TLDR ; not possible, if u didnt read i dont blame you i just needed somewhere to rant and vent, i feel like neither .org or .com are the place for that atm

@burn

 

[paranoia]

dnr

 

[RNT]

dnr

The narrator recounts a frustrating two-month experience with a girl he met through a mutual friend via a picture. Their initial texting was minimal and awkward, involving awkward small talk and exchanging one-time view pictures (his mostly showing gym or gambling). The narrator, describing himself as socially inexperienced and an "abused dog," found this texting "mental torture."

They eventually met up, but the date was extremely awkward with long silences. Even a simple trip to a restaurant involved awkwardness, her friend showing up, and continued quiet. After taking her home, the narrator texted her two days later to hang out again, but she completely ghosted him, leaving his message on delivered indefinitely.

After some time, she suddenly texted him again. They engaged in brief, sometimes delayed small talk. During a conversation about TV shows, he suggested they watch one together. She responded positively ("yeah sure," with a heart). However, after the narrator waited several hours to respond and then texted her asking if she was free to hang out this weekend, she left him on delivered again.

The narrator concludes that she was likely just seeking attention from him and expresses his feeling of being a neglected social outcast who despises society, believing the world has no place for people like him. The entire experience was difficult and confirmed his negative self-perception.

 

[paranoia]

The narrator recounts a frustrating two-month experience with a girl he met through a mutual friend via a picture. Their initial texting was minimal and awkward, involving awkward small talk and exchanging one-time view pictures (his mostly showing gym or gambling). The narrator, describing himself as socially inexperienced and an "abused dog," found this texting "mental torture."

They eventually met up, but the date was extremely awkward with long silences. Even a simple trip to a restaurant involved awkwardness, her friend showing up, and continued quiet. After taking her home, the narrator texted her two days later to hang out again, but she completely ghosted him, leaving his message on delivered indefinitely.

After some time, she suddenly texted him again. They engaged in brief, sometimes delayed small talk. During a conversation about TV shows, he suggested they watch one together. She responded positively ("yeah sure," with a heart). However, after the narrator waited several hours to respond and then texted her asking if she was free to hang out this weekend, she left him on delivered again.

The narrator concludes that she was likely just seeking attention from him and expresses his feeling of being a neglected social outcast who despises society, believing the world has no place for people like him. The entire experience was difficult and confirmed his negative self-perception.

pretty much

 

[Deleted member 2510]

Texting is indeed mental torture i agree with u, i had girls tell me "i text too weird" when in fact i was being as nt as i could, these forum rotters tell u its all looks but if u aint social then ggs u aint pulling nothing, mentalceldom will kill any chance u got i can heavily relate to what u said.
Aleo being a mentalcel in the balkans is brutal ppl here are giga nt, ik your struggle bro westernfags here will never know.

At this point im just hoping i can date a mentally ill hoe that will accept me for who i am cuz im done with normie bitches, im too retarded to talk about social media normie stuff.

All the girls i talked with i just let them do the talk 90%of the time jfl let them vent all their problems while i just lie and agree with them but still i fumbled every chance i had

 

[paranoia]

Texting is indeed mental torture i agree with u, i had girls tell me "i text too weird" when in fact i was being as nt as i could, these forum rotters tell u its all looks but if u aint social then ggs u aint pulling nothing, mentalceldom will kill any chance u got i can heavily relate to what u said.
Aleo being a mentalcel in the balkans is brutal ppl here are giga nt, ik your struggle bro westernfags here will never know.

i cannot think of something i despise more than texting, everything about it is retarded and its just not meant for people like me, i cant fake being nt all my life ive been nothing but walked over

and the fact she STILL went out with me even do she knew how anxious and socially behind i am, its like im just a clown show to her im just some toy, a punching bag she spits on everytime she needs attention and not just her, soysciety in general

locationpill is also brutal, sure im not meant for this world/generation but i would do better in life and dating in general if i lived somewhere else and not this third world shithole

At this point im just hoping i can date a mentally ill hoe that will accept me for who i am cuz im done with normie bitches, im too retarded to talk about social media normie stuff.

same, only way i see myself dating someone is if shes as mentally ill and introverted, if shes been walked over and spat on by everyone like i was (which is never the case because shes a women) normie bitches are meant for people like us i never stood a chance

All the girls i talked with i just let them do the talk 90%of the time jfl let them vent all their problems while i just lie and agree with them but still i fumbled every chance i had

i was gonna do this but shes either an outcast which isnt the case as shes a social person so shes just playing with me making me do all the talk and venting, she never started a convo when we hung out its always me, its always me keeping it alive, its always me starting it and its always me trying to hold it together and keep the convo alive she never did anything

 

[Deleted member 2510]

locationpill is also brutal, sure im not meant for this world/generation but i would do better in life and dating in general if i lived somewhere else and not this third world shithole

Brutally relatable, us outcasts cant fit in our culture, this is why i had long successful talks with foreign girls, in english i can sound as the most nt person alive, in my native language tho i sound like a asylum patient, i was meant to be a rich westerner not a broke 3rd world balkancel

i cannot think of something i despise more than texting, everything about it is retarded and its just not meant for people like me, i cant fake being nt all my life ive been nothing but walked over

Yup when you have been outcasted your whole life scared to even talk then your future gonna be hell theres really no escape for inceldom for us autists no looks are saving us ggs.

same, only way i see myself dating someone is if shes as mentally ill and introverted, if shes been walked over and spat on by everyone like i was (which is never the case because shes a women) normie bitches are meant for people like us i never stood a chance

Yup those "depressed" egirls are the only ones that somewhat can accept our autism, only girls that didnt block me in a day were discord mentally ill girls, sad thing is all girls like that that i could have had a chance with lived 10000km away there was no way to meet any, i never met one from my shithole always far away.
Cuz if one of them lived near me? My god id have a big family rn i wouldnt care

 

[paranoia]

Brutally relatable, us outcasts cant fit in our culture, this is why i had long successful talks with foreign girls, in english i can sound as the most nt person alive, in my native language tho i sound like a asylum patient, i was meant to be a rich westerner not a broke 3rd world balkancel

Yup when you have been outcasted your whole life scared to even talk then your future gonna be hell theres really no escape for inceldom for us autists no looks are saving us ggs.

Yup those "depressed" egirls are the only ones that somewhat can accept our autism, only girls that didnt block me in a day were discord mentally ill girls, sad thing is all girls like that that i could have had a chance with lived 10000km away there was no way to meet any, i never met one from my shithole always far away.
Cuz if one of them lived near me? My god id have a big family rn i wouldnt care

you are genuinely the only person i can talk to without hearing the "it gets better" bullshit, appreciate you bro

 

[Moondust]

Lol theres worse man. At least you tried. My story awkwardmogs yours. Mine is so bad i buried it in the back of my head. And its so embarassing even the short description of it is terrible and makes me cringe

When i was 16 my brother forced me to talk to his online gf on the phone so i cud get more experience. I had no idea what to talk about so i just talked about drugs the whole time because i was a tryhard druggiecel at this point lmao. Like i just repeated talking about drugs, asking what drugs she had done, how i had smoked weed, etc for an hour a day for weeks .. same aspects as yours with long periods of awkward silence and shit, etc

Yea being a druggiecel can be cool in certain respects in certain circles like how @Lain does it but i looked like a gay nerdy japanese jewish hapa at that point so it was horribly cringe

Id rather be you in your story than me in mine

Also read a story on bodybuilding misc forum back in the day of a guy having a full blown panic attack in the middle of a date at a sit down restaurant. Thats just as embarrassing. Ngl thats the kind of shit that wud happen to me lol

 

[paranoia]

Lol theres worse man. At least you tried. My story awkwardmogs yours. Mine is so bad i buried it in the back of my head. And its so embarassing even the short description of it is terrible and makes me cringe

When i was 16 my brother forced me to talk to his online gf on the phone so i cud get more experience. I had no idea what to talk about so i just talked about drugs the whole time because i was a tryhard druggiecel at this point lmao. Like i just repeated talking about drugs, asking what drugs she had done, how i had smoked weed, etc for an hour a day for weeks .. same aspects as yours with long periods of awkward silence and shit, etc

Yea being a druggiecel can be cool in certain respects in certain circles like how @Lain does it but i looked like a gay nerdy japanese jewish hapa at that point so it was horribly cringe

Id rather be you in your story than me in mine

Also read a story on bodybuilding misc forum back in the day of a guy having a full blown panic attack in the middle of a date at a sit down restaurant. Thats just as embarrassing. Ngl thats the kind of shit that wud happen to me lol

it was online at least, always worse when you look at her in the eye

i dont know if i mentioned it in the thread but i also just talked about drugs mostly which clearly wasnt interesting to her

partially why she ghosted me probably, imagine after all the bullshit i told her before we even meet up and after all the silence and awkwardness that happened i sit there and start talking about drugs and how i love smoking weed

 

[Schizo]

you are genuinely the only person i can talk to without hearing the "it gets better" bullshit, appreciate you bro

Burn is based forum chad

 

[Moondust]

it was online at least, always worse when you look at her in the eye

i dont know if i mentioned it in the thread but i also just talked about drugs mostly which clearly wasnt interesting to her

partially why she ghosted me probably, imagine after all the bullshit i told her before we even meet up and after all the silence and awkwardness that happened i sit there and start talking about drugs and how i love smoking weed

You 2 started talking simply cuz of looks thats the problem. You need to connect with others based on personality

Later i talked to a few girls just as friends, need to do that at first to get more comfortable. But im so nervous around girls i always stop talking to them , even just online as friends. Whenever i talked to girls i wud legit have like obsessive worrying in the back of my head about what she would say next. It was horrid

 

[Schizo]

You 2 started talking simply cuz of looks thats the problem. You need to connect with others based on personality

Later i talked to a few girls just as friends, need to do that at first to get more comfortable. But im so nervous around girls i always stop talking to them , even just online as friends. Whenever i talked to girls i wud legit have like obsessive worrying in the back of my head about what she would say next. It was horrid

Can you make a tutorial on how to talk to women? I have problems

 

[Moondust]

I knew a guy on slut hate who lost his virginity by posting on youtube complaining about being ugly, and a crazy older woman contacted him online and met up with him irl .if any of u posted there PM me and i can talk about it more i dont wanna betray his privacy

 

[paranoia]

You 2 started talking simply cuz of looks thats the problem. You need to connect with others based on personality

yeah i guess you are right, thats probably the biggest problem

she decided to hmu based on one sp picture, i checked her highlights, found her attractive and thats pretty much it

no personality took place in the texting at all, it was just bullshit small talk to pass time, i wouldnt talk about myself neither would she

im sure she had something to talk about, i really dont im a plain boring person

 

[Moondust]

Can you make a tutorial on how to talk to women? I have problems

Might as well ask a monkey how to do quantum physics . I have some basic common sense about it, i cud get a gf if i wasnt so terrified and settled, everyone could.

Ultimate blackpill is settling honestly

 

[Schizo]

Might as well ask a monkey how to do quantum physics . I have some basic common sense about it, i cud get a gf if i wasnt so terrified and settled, everyone could.

Ultimate blackpill is settling honestly

Do you cold approach women irl?
I never once did that and I'm 20 now

 

[Moondust]

Do you cold approach women irl?
I never once did that and I'm 20 now

I cold approached like 3 women 13 years ago thats all lol. Seems awkward af and unnatural. Again ur only connecting based on looks unless u guys meet in a place where u know u have something in common like a club

 

[paranoia]

Do you cold approach women irl?
I never once did that and I'm 20 now

i never approached myself either only i get approached from time to time very rarely tho

 

[Schizo]

I cold approached like 3 women 13 years ago thats all lol. Seems awkward af and unnatural. Again ur only connecting based on looks unless u guys meet in a place where u know u have something in common like a club

Damn 13 years ago? I should've addressed you with respect. I apologize sir.

 

[Schizo]

i never approached myself either only i get approached from time to time very rarely tho

Mogs me

 

[Moondust]

Damn 13 years ago? I should've addressed you with respect. I apologize sir.

Wait a minute 14 years ago . In 2011 when i was going to IRL college. Which i gave up after a semester

 

[paranoia]

still on delivered fml