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Trees
NEET
- Feb 6, 2022
- 15
'm 25 years old and I live at home, and I'm autistic and extremely mentally ill and I can't work because I have severe panic disorder and mood swings, and people especially women often find me weird and creepy because of how my face looks combined with uncontrollable autistic mannerisms, so for that reason I've ended up on disability and I'm just a full time 100% NEET now, so I just basically exist, I go to the gym most days because it's literally my only reason to leave the house
My mum doesn't even bother waking me up to get out of bed anymore she just lets me sleep in and I feel so fucking embarrassed because of that, knowing that during 7am when I finally manage to fall asleep because my insomnia is so severe, everyone else is waking up for work, college or school or whatever, and I'm just doing nothing but scrolling on my phone all day, gaming is no longer fun because my dopamine is so burnt out, for some reason having a mum who just doesn't even really care that I'm a NEET feels so embarrassing and shameful, because literally ANY other parent would force their son to get a job or even kick them out for freeloading, but because my mum is so acutely aware of just how fucked up and how fucking beyond mentally disturbed I am, she just doesn't even talk to me about getting a job anymore and even discourages it sometimes
I just hope I'm not the only guy in the UK my age who lives like this, I feel so fucking pathetic, seeing everyone else at the gym knowing they've returned from work or school and knowing I'm likely the only lifeless jobless NEET piece of shit in there, it's fucking awful, the shame is seriously unparalleled
Is there anyone else here who lives like this? Just drifting on NEETbuxx in their mums house?
My mum doesn't even bother waking me up to get out of bed anymore she just lets me sleep in and I feel so fucking embarrassed because of that, knowing that during 7am when I finally manage to fall asleep because my insomnia is so severe, everyone else is waking up for work, college or school or whatever, and I'm just doing nothing but scrolling on my phone all day, gaming is no longer fun because my dopamine is so burnt out, for some reason having a mum who just doesn't even really care that I'm a NEET feels so embarrassing and shameful, because literally ANY other parent would force their son to get a job or even kick them out for freeloading, but because my mum is so acutely aware of just how fucked up and how fucking beyond mentally disturbed I am, she just doesn't even talk to me about getting a job anymore and even discourages it sometimes
I just hope I'm not the only guy in the UK my age who lives like this, I feel so fucking pathetic, seeing everyone else at the gym knowing they've returned from work or school and knowing I'm likely the only lifeless jobless NEET piece of shit in there, it's fucking awful, the shame is seriously unparalleled
Is there anyone else here who lives like this? Just drifting on NEETbuxx in their mums house?