Venting I am not smart...

[DirtyCurryCell]

I've slowly been coming into terms with this, and it all makes sense now.
When I was a kid, adults would say that I'm exceptionally intelligent, partly because I was able to grasp english at a young age. But language acquisition seems to be the limit of my intelligence, and being smart enough to understand that I am not smart.

I did my BSc in IT, because I wanted to work in games. JFL.
But the only tech jobs available in IT in my region were fullstack.
So I tried getting into fullstack, but I found it to be the most boring thing you could do on a computer.

Later I did managed to get a job as Unity Developer which paid well. I really should've known this was the peak of my abilities, because all I did was basic UI programming for a educational farmville clone. JFL. But no, I had to go spend a fortune in the west to get an MSc in Game Development. The MSc was basically coursework based and we had to make a bunch of projects. I got Bs and Cs. But these projects were nothing special. And when it came to actually applying for jobs, the most common feedback I had recieved was that my portfolio was extremely basic. JFL. I just learned Unreal from doing a bunch of online courses. That was the height of my experience with Unreal. That one one group project I worked on.

I did land 4 interviews, but I found myself struggling at the technical interviews. So I decided to move back to the third world, because I wasn't even able to find a wagie job. Despite getting interviews. And I didn't want to be the stereotype of a curry who came with student visa to be an uberjeet, JFL.

I spent most of this year learning advanced C++ topics. I tried learning Vulkan, but I realized I was getting ahead of myself.
These days, I've started looking at portfolios that are considered good, and trying to recreate them, and I'm finding out two things.

1. I have no idea what I'm doing
2. I feel like procrastinating.

This is why I'm a truecel. These are the kinda things that subhumans are supposed to be good at. Yes, I know curries being good at IT is just a meme, and I've talked about it before. But imagine not being able to master things which subhumans are supposed to be good at it. Looking back this is how I am with everything. I've taken up several things in the past, and for me they were all the the same. They were easy for me to pick up. I picked up the basics in a week. I remember in my first year at Uni, I would get As for all the programming modules, despite not attending lectures. I found the lectures boring, because I would write the code and wait for the others to catch up. But eventually, in the middle of actual algorithms and data structures, I low key lost interest. And then the next thing I know, these idiots who couldn't understand a basic function and had relied on me for group projects are suddenly fullstack engineers, while I'm a NEET.

I gave drawing a try, and I learned it quite quickly. Now my figure drawings are quite good, provided I have nice references, but I can't draw from imagination. And idk how to take my skills to a level I can monetize.

EDIT: I'm not cut out to be in STEM, idk why I ever thought I was. I'm just a dumb pajeet. There's a reason pajeets coming to the west on student visa and staying as uberjeets and wagies is a meme. Because it's true.

 

[MelaninQueen]

I'm average at best.

 

[frightfulcel]

Most people are more average than they think they are, its just that as a society we worship the .1% who makes it big then we become down when we don't measure up against that.

 

[MelaninQueen]

Most people are more average than they think they are, its just that as a society we worship the .1% who makes it big then we become down when we don't measure up against that.

Could you give me suggestions on how to socialize online? I'm having a hard time approaching folks in Habbo (an online social game).

 

[frightfulcel]

Could you give me suggestions on how to socialize online? I'm having a hard time approaching folks in Habbo (an online social game).

I have autism so I am likely the worst person to ask

 

[MelaninQueen]

I have autism so I am likely the worst person to ask

I would like to learn small talk and perform it smoothly as most people do... but I have a general idea on how to chit-chat with other people: asking about their lives (what do you do for a living, age, ...), trending news, etc.

 

[frightfulcel]

I would like to learn small talk and perform it smoothly as most people do... but I have a general idea on how to chit-chat with other people: asking about their lives (what do you do for a living, age, ...), trending news, etc.

I'm going to be honest it has to come naturally, you have to "vibe" with it. But getting into that "vibe" is somewhat out of our control.

I guess you could try just copying the culture of the game and how other people interact.

 

[MelaninQueen]

I guess you could try just copying the culture of the game and how other people interact.

I guess I could talk about Millennium Dawn mod for HOI 4 or perhaps about my ArmA 3 scenarios.

 

[DirtyCurryCell]

I guess I could talk about Millennium Dawn mod for HOI 4 or perhaps about my ArmA 3 scenarios.

Just gonna hijack my thread, just like that?

 

[MelaninQueen]

Just gonna hijack my thread, just like that?

No.

 

[Deleted member 1903]

? You have qualifications and work experience. Just get back on track and ur sorted.

 

[Deleted member 1903]

You’re smart for getting into IT though, I was scared of looking like a computer addict to my parents so I didn’t pick that route (this is what actual retardation looks like).

 

[DirtyCurryCell]

? You have qualifications and work experience. Just get back on track and ur sorted.

Oh sure man, I'll just do that.

 

[JeremyBentham]

I've slowly been coming into terms with this, and it all makes sense now.
When I was a kid, adults would say that I'm exceptionally intelligent, partly because I was able to grasp english at a young age. But language acquisition seems to be the limit of my intelligence, and being smart enough to understand that I am not smart.

I did my BSc in IT, because I wanted to work in games. JFL.
But the only tech jobs available in IT in my region were fullstack.
So I tried getting into fullstack, but I found it to be the most boring thing you could do on a computer.

Later I did managed to get a job as Unity Developer which paid well. I really should've known this was the peak of my abilities, because all I did was basic UI programming for a educational farmville clone. JFL. But no, I had to go spend a fortune in the west to get an MSc in Game Development. The MSc was basically coursework based and we had to make a bunch of projects. I got Bs and Cs. But these projects were nothing special. And when it came to actually applying for jobs, the most common feedback I had recieved was that my portfolio was extremely basic. JFL. I just learned Unreal from doing a bunch of online courses. That was the height of my experience with Unreal. That one one group project I worked on.

I did land 4 interviews, but I found myself struggling at the technical interviews. So I decided to move back to the third world, because I wasn't even able to find a wagie job. Despite getting interviews. And I didn't want to be the stereotype of a curry who came with student visa to be an uberjeet, JFL.

I spent most of this year learning advanced C++ topics. I tried learning Vulkan, but I realized I was getting ahead of myself.
These days, I've started looking at portfolios that are considered good, and trying to recreate them, and I'm finding out two things.

1. I have no idea what I'm doing
2. I feel like procrastinating.

This is why I'm a truecel. These are the kinda things that subhumans are supposed to be good at. Yes, I know curries being good at IT is just a meme, and I've talked about it before. But imagine not being able to master things which subhumans are supposed to be good at it. Looking back this is how I am with everything. I've taken up several things in the past, and for me they were all the the same. They were easy for me to pick up. I picked up the basics in a week. I remember in my first year at Uni, I would get As for all the programming modules, despite not attending lectures. I found the lectures boring, because I would write the code and wait for the others to catch up. But eventually, in the middle of actual algorithms and data structures, I low key lost interest. And then the next thing I know, these idiots who couldn't understand a basic function and had relied on me for group projects are suddenly fullstack engineers, while I'm a NEET.

I gave drawing a try, and I learned it quite quickly. Now my figure drawings are quite good, provided I have nice references, but I can't draw from imagination. And idk how to take my skills to a level I can monetize.

EDIT: I'm not cut out to be in STEM, idk why I ever thought I was. I'm just a dumb pajeet. There's a reason pajeets coming to the west on student visa and staying as uberjeets and wagies is a meme. Because it's true.

Programming is the most painful and boring thing a human could ever do in a computer.

 

[JeremyBentham]

I've slowly been coming into terms with this, and it all makes sense now.
When I was a kid, adults would say that I'm exceptionally intelligent, partly because I was able to grasp english at a young age. But language acquisition seems to be the limit of my intelligence, and being smart enough to understand that I am not smart.

I did my BSc in IT, because I wanted to work in games. JFL.
But the only tech jobs available in IT in my region were fullstack.
So I tried getting into fullstack, but I found it to be the most boring thing you could do on a computer.

Later I did managed to get a job as Unity Developer which paid well. I really should've known this was the peak of my abilities, because all I did was basic UI programming for a educational farmville clone. JFL. But no, I had to go spend a fortune in the west to get an MSc in Game Development. The MSc was basically coursework based and we had to make a bunch of projects. I got Bs and Cs. But these projects were nothing special. And when it came to actually applying for jobs, the most common feedback I had recieved was that my portfolio was extremely basic. JFL. I just learned Unreal from doing a bunch of online courses. That was the height of my experience with Unreal. That one one group project I worked on.

I did land 4 interviews, but I found myself struggling at the technical interviews. So I decided to move back to the third world, because I wasn't even able to find a wagie job. Despite getting interviews. And I didn't want to be the stereotype of a curry who came with student visa to be an uberjeet, JFL.

I spent most of this year learning advanced C++ topics. I tried learning Vulkan, but I realized I was getting ahead of myself.
These days, I've started looking at portfolios that are considered good, and trying to recreate them, and I'm finding out two things.

1. I have no idea what I'm doing
2. I feel like procrastinating.

This is why I'm a truecel. These are the kinda things that subhumans are supposed to be good at. Yes, I know curries being good at IT is just a meme, and I've talked about it before. But imagine not being able to master things which subhumans are supposed to be good at it. Looking back this is how I am with everything. I've taken up several things in the past, and for me they were all the the same. They were easy for me to pick up. I picked up the basics in a week. I remember in my first year at Uni, I would get As for all the programming modules, despite not attending lectures. I found the lectures boring, because I would write the code and wait for the others to catch up. But eventually, in the middle of actual algorithms and data structures, I low key lost interest. And then the next thing I know, these idiots who couldn't understand a basic function and had relied on me for group projects are suddenly fullstack engineers, while I'm a NEET.

I gave drawing a try, and I learned it quite quickly. Now my figure drawings are quite good, provided I have nice references, but I can't draw from imagination. And idk how to take my skills to a level I can monetize.

EDIT: I'm not cut out to be in STEM, idk why I ever thought I was. I'm just a dumb pajeet. There's a reason pajeets coming to the west on student visa and staying as uberjeets and wagies is a meme. Because it's true.

I readed yo shit. If you think you are truecel trueneet look this, i didn't even finish school and im so dumb i cant learn programing megaboring megahard shit
Btw i hate niggers

 

[Deleted member 2286]

I've slowly been coming into terms with this, and it all makes sense now.
When I was a kid, adults would say that I'm exceptionally intelligent, partly because I was able to grasp english at a young age. But language acquisition seems to be the limit of my intelligence, and being smart enough to understand that I am not smart.

Dude, you have reflected on your limits. That's a good sign you're intelligent to a certain degree. I mean, in my opinion there are different degrees to being 'intelligent', and I don't think you're low in that regard, but as you, I empathize with the feeling of not being good enough.

I did my BSc in IT, because I wanted to work in games. JFL.
But the only tech jobs available in IT in my region were fullstack.
So I tried getting into fullstack, but I found it to be the most boring thing you could do on a computer.

Yeah, this is the first problem that appears. You wanted to do something different, but had to settle for something 'boring' as you say. In other words, you are not where you want to be, and this seems to be a reason for your lack of motivation.

Later I did managed to get a job as Unity Developer which paid well. I really should've known this was the peak of my abilities, because all I did was basic UI programming for a educational farmville clone. JFL. But no, I had to go spend a fortune in the west to get an MSc in Game Development. The MSc was basically coursework based and we had to make a bunch of projects. I got Bs and Cs. But these projects were nothing special. And when it came to actually applying for jobs, the most common feedback I had recieved was that my portfolio was extremely basic. JFL. I just learned Unreal from doing a bunch of online courses. That was the height of my experience with Unreal. That one one group project I worked on.

Why was your portfolio 'extremely basic'? Did you tried at least to make it better in any way?

I did land 4 interviews, but I found myself struggling at the technical interviews. So I decided to move back to the third world, because I wasn't even able to find a wagie job. Despite getting interviews. And I didn't want to be the stereotype of a curry who came with student visa to be an uberjeet, JFL.

Do you really think you had the knowledge and preparation to pass those technical interviews?

I spent most of this year learning advanced C++ topics. I tried learning Vulkan, but I realized I was getting ahead of myself.
These days, I've started looking at portfolios that are considered good, and trying to recreate them, and I'm finding out two things.

When you say that 'I was getting ahead of myself', do you mean you were learning advanced concepts that you were not really going to use anyway? If so, then you are kinda intelligent to a certain degree. Don't you think so?

1. I have no idea what I'm doing
2. I feel like procrastinating.

You are lost and not going in any particular direction.

This is why I'm a truecel. These are the kinda things that subhumans are supposed to be good at. Yes, I know curries being good at IT is just a meme, and I've talked about it before. But imagine not being able to master things which subhumans are supposed to be good at it. Looking back this is how I am with everything. I've taken up several things in the past, and for me they were all the the same. They were easy for me to pick up. I picked up the basics in a week. I remember in my first year at Uni, I would get As for all the programming modules, despite not attending lectures. I found the lectures boring, because I would write the code and wait for the others to catch up. But eventually, in the middle of actual algorithms and data structures, I low key lost interest. And then the next thing I know, these idiots who couldn't understand a basic function and had relied on me for group projects are suddenly fullstack engineers, while I'm a NEET.

You picked the basics easily, and even helped other people that went on to become fullstack engineers. Don't you think this has something to say about your intelligence? Why did you lost interest? Was it because it got hard or because it wasn't what you really wanted to do, and thus you did not have enough motivation to do it?

I gave drawing a try, and I learned it quite quickly. Now my figure drawings are quite good, provided I have nice references, but I can't draw from imagination. And idk how to take my skills to a level I can monetize.

And now you talking about how good your skills for drawing are!

EDIT: I'm not cut out to be in STEM, idk why I ever thought I was. I'm just a dumb pajeet. There's a reason pajeets coming to the west on student visa and staying as uberjeets and wagies is a meme. Because it's true.

I think you are good enough to be in STEM. Correct me if I'm wrong, but I think that what happens in this case is the following: you are intelligent, but not to the degree you would like to be. I mean, you will still struggle with hard concepts and all, but I don't think that should discourage you anyways. I think working hard and intelligently could really help you, but if you don't have the right motivations, then it will all be for nothing, and that's what I think happens with you. There comes a point where we can't just rely solely on raw intelligence to do what we want, and so we have to start making more efficient use of our thinking processes via metacognition, you should look it up.

In conclussion, I think your biggest problem is your lack of motivation. Try to think why that is!

I try to be comprehensive with others. I hope you don't take anything I have said for the wrong.w I'm just here to help. I'm an INFP after all.

 

[DirtyCurryCell]

Dude, you have reflected on your limits. That's a good sign you're intelligent to a certain degree. I mean, in my opinion there are different degrees to being 'intelligent', and I don't think you're low in that regard, but as you, I empathize with the feeling of not being good enough.

What matters in this world, specially in the modern world is what you can produce, and I'm realizing that there is nothing I can produce that can make money.

Yeah, this is the first problem that appears. You wanted to do something different, but had to settle for something 'boring' as you say. In other words, you are not where you want to be, and this seems to be a reason for your lack of motivation.

Yeah, but I tried switching and realized I'm not good enough.

Why was your portfolio 'extremely basic'? Did you tried at least to make it better in any way?

It looked like I did a bunch of a tutorials. Which is what I did. I'm trying to create complex things like pathfinding from scratch these days, but I feel so demoralized.

Do you really think you had the knowledge and preparation to pass those technical interviews?

Yes and no. I knew all of those things on paper.

When you say that 'I was getting ahead of myself', do you mean you were learning advanced concepts that you were not really going to use anyway? If so, then you are kinda intelligent to a certain degree. Don't you think so?

No, I was learning advanced things after just learn the bare bones. The very basics.

You picked the basics easily, and even helped other people that went on to become fullstack engineers. Don't you think this has something to say about your intelligence? Why did you lost interest? Was it because it got hard or because it wasn't what you really wanted to do, and thus you did not have enough motivation to do it?

It got hard. It was no longer "fun". The same with drawing. Drawing went from something I'd decided to do for a quick 15 minutes before bed and ended up staying 12 hours, to something that was actually work, I could see the errors in my own anatomy, and would give up through most art pieces. Or I would get to drawing a gun and give up because the gun had SO MANY miniscule parts. Likewise with games. I learned the basics of making a character move and shoot, and then the enemies. But making it like what you would see in the stores, took actual effort. It was no longer fun. It was work.

And now you talking about how good your skills for drawing are!

I stopped when it stopped being "fun"

I think you are good enough to be in STEM. Correct me if I'm wrong, but I think that what happens in this case is the following: you are intelligent, but not to the degree you would like to be. I mean, you will still struggle with hard concepts and all, but I don't think that should discourage you anyways. I think working hard and intelligently could really help you, but if you don't have the right motivations, then it will all be for nothing, and that's what I think happens with you. There comes a point where we can't just rely solely on raw intelligence to do what we want, and so we have to start making more efficient use of our thinking processes via metacognition, you should look it up.

This is true. But idk how

In conclussion, I think your biggest problem is your lack of motivation. Try to think why that is!

true. I give up things when they stop being fun.

I try to be comprehensive with others. I hope you don't take anything I have said for the wrong.w I'm just here to help. I'm an INFP after all.

I'm an INTP

 

[Deleted member 2286]

What matters in this world, specially in the modern world is what you can produce, and I'm realizing that there is nothing I can produce that can make money.

Yeah, but I tried switching and realized I'm not good enough.

It looked like I did a bunch of a tutorials. Which is what I did. I'm trying to create complex things like pathfinding from scratch these days, but I feel so demoralized.

Yes and no. I knew all of those things on paper.

No, I was learning advanced things after just learn the bare bones. The very basics.

It got hard. It was no longer "fun". The same with drawing. Drawing went from something I'd decided to do for a quick 15 minutes before bed and ended up staying 12 hours, to something that was actually work, I could see the errors in my own anatomy, and would give up through most art pieces. Or I would get to drawing a gun and give up because the gun had SO MANY miniscule parts. Likewise with games. I learned the basics of making a character move and shoot, and then the enemies. But making it like what you would see in the stores, took actual effort. It was no longer fun. It was work.

I stopped when it stopped being "fun"



This is true. But idk how

true. I give up things when they stop being fun.

I'm an INTP

JFL is the same for me. Mayb

What matters in this world, specially in the modern world is what you can produce, and I'm realizing that there is nothing I can produce that can make money.

Yeah, but I tried switching and realized I'm not good enough.

It looked like I did a bunch of a tutorials. Which is what I did. I'm trying to create complex things like pathfinding from scratch these days, but I feel so demoralized.

Yes and no. I knew all of those things on paper.

No, I was learning advanced things after just learn the bare bones. The very basics.

It got hard. It was no longer "fun". The same with drawing. Drawing went from something I'd decided to do for a quick 15 minutes before bed and ended up staying 12 hours, to something that was actually work, I could see the errors in my own anatomy, and would give up through most art pieces. Or I would get to drawing a gun and give up because the gun had SO MANY miniscule parts. Likewise with games. I learned the basics of making a character move and shoot, and then the enemies. But making it like what you would see in the stores, took actual effort. It was no longer fun. It was work.

I stopped when it stopped being "fun"



This is true. But idk how

true. I give up things when they stop being fun.

I'm an INTP

Yes, we may not be good enough, and this means we have to compensate for our lack of genetics with hard work. The problem is: do we even have the motivation to work hard? Brutal.

 

[Kpwat]

As for me, all I know is that I know nothing.

 

[Deleted member 1903]

As for me, all I know is that I know nothing.

@DirtyCurryCell looks down on ppl like us D:

 

[DirtyCurryCell]

@DirtyCurryCell looks down on ppl like us D:

I look down on anyone that can't speak Multiple languages and know complex maths/physics and low level programming.

 

[Deleted member 1903]

I look down on anyone that can't speak Multiple languages and know complex maths/physics and low level programming.

Tbh I can’t do anything xd

 

[jordan29]

I guess I could talk about Millennium Dawn mod for HOI 4 or perhaps about my ArmA 3 scenarios.

LMAOOOOOOOOO

 

[MelaninQueen]

LMAOOOOOOOOO

What's wrong?