I am thankful for having experienced love

[WestEuropoor]

I am my ex eternally grateful for her giving love to me

Its something i will never recieve again in my current state

Psychosis made me a shell of what i used to be. It IQcapped me and i never returned to a truly clear state of mind

The more time passes the more you come to terms with it. Sometimes i have flashbacks of these times when we looked into our eyes or she would playfully stick out her tongue after i said something stupid to mock her. I am so sorry for losing you and for what i did. I can never change, this is what i am and what i will always be. I just hope she is happy. I didn't deserve what she gave me.


My one and only love, before psychosis and blackpill ruined me.

 

[AsgardTheFatcel]

Don't idolize women, even your 'ex-girlfriends'. Yeah, I sound like I am too "blackpilled" at this point (more like grounded with reality), so I actively avoid women who aren't part of my own blood family as a consequence of this. They don't really think with logic, but their lives are being lead through their emotions. We all know this.

P.S: I know you aren't making any reference to a real woman in your post. Still, I won't delete this comment because it could apply for similar threads that might be created in the future.

 

[WestEuropoor]

Don't idolize women, even your 'ex-girlfriends'. Yeah, I sound like I am too "blackpilled" at this point (more like grounded with reality), so I actively avoid women who aren't part of my own blood family as a consequence of this. They don't really think with logic, but their lives are being lead through their emotions. We all know this.

P.S: I know you aren't making any reference to a real woman in your post. Still, I won't delete this comment because it could apply for similar threads that might be created in the future.

Oh, this is actually true. Beyond the shitposts i never made a secret of not being a virgin. I used to be somewhat normal, i made posts about this way before you joined here

 

[PaintedSky]

only love I got was from an online gf


ovER

 

[WestEuropoor]

only love I was from an online gf


ovER

May god grant you many wolf gf's

 

[PaintedSky]

May god grant you many wolf gf's

 

[lifesucksandyoudie]

Don't feel too bad, if you were still with your gf you probably would've never found this forum and gotten all those cool reactions

 

[AsgardTheFatcel]

Oh, this is actually true. Beyond the shitposts i never made a secret of not being a virgin. I used to be somewhat normal, i made posts about this way before you joined here

I'll be honest but, I've had a girlfriend before (and other certain experiences that I wouldn't like to discuss in detail). Now, that doesn't mean I'm not an incel. I am, I really am. I was an outcast back in school, but somehow, I had success by meeting someone from the internet who led me to other women and so on (of course, women below my looks level). What I'm trying to say is, blackpill has been always the truth and since I'm not really average-looking anymore (after puberty), I am okay with my current circumstances. Women are absolutely not worth it.

 

[WestEuropoor]

(and other certain experiences that I wouldn't to further elaborate).

You got pegged?

 

[WestEuropoor]

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I am so frustrated this isn't real

 

[AsgardTheFatcel]

You got pegged?

No, they were only brief 'flings'. All the painful delusions I've experienced as a naïve neurodivergent teenager were as a consequence of meeting women. Look, those women I'm referring to were ETHNIC WOMEN, not women of my fucking own race... I'd remain kiss less by now if it weren't because of having experienced such random occurrence.

Yes, I am still a virgin. No, I'm not a "normie" like some people like to call it on here. Back in my school, people used me for laughs, I hated recess time because I was alone just like the other ASD classmates, etc. School WAS HELL.

 

[WestEuropoor]

No, they were only brief 'flings'.

Brutal, you used to be a NT mogger

 

[AsgardTheFatcel]

Brutal, you used to be a NT mogger

Yes, I am still a virgin. No, I'm not a "normie" like some people like to call it on here. Back in high school, people used me for laughs (I was the clown). I hated recess time because I was alone in the library just like the other ASD classmates, etc. School WAS HELL.

I was never neurotypical and I realize I've been always weird all my life. My parents aren't really neurotypical, I have people from my family who suffer from schizophrenia. I realized people used me for laughs. My only 1-2 "friends" who I knew from middle school never invited me outside. Of course, I didn't even care about social friendships. BUT, friendships are necessary for getting your dick inserted into a vagina.

 

[Saladino]

Don't idolize women, even your 'ex-girlfriends'. Yeah, I sound like I am too "blackpilled" at this point (more like grounded with reality), so I actively avoid women who aren't part of my own blood family as a consequence of this. They don't really think with logic, but their lives are being lead through their emotions. We all know this.

P.S: I know you aren't making any reference to a real woman in your post. Still, I won't delete this comment because it could apply for similar threads that might be created in the future.

 

[WestEuropoor]

Yes, I am still a virgin. No, I'm not a "normie" like some people like to call it on here. Back in high school, people used me for laughs (I was the clown). I hated recess time because I was alone in the library just like the other ASD classmates, etc. School WAS HELL.

I was never neurotypical. I realized people used me for laughs. My only 1-2 "friends" who I knew from middle school never invited me outside. Of course, I didn't even care about social friendships. BUT, friendships are necessary for getting your dick inserted into a vagina.

Oh i thought you meant you had sex

 

[AsgardTheFatcel]

Oh i thought you meant you had sex

No, unfortunately I never had the opportunity to stick my dick into a vagina (or an anus). I'm sure it feels like... edging yourself?

 

[Levi]

I fear intimacy and lack the drive to pursue anyone

 

[AsgardTheFatcel]

I fear intimacy and lack the drive to pursue anyone

I fear law enforcement and the possibility of them raiding my parents' house because of my views against certain groups who are backed by Western countries.

 

[WestEuropoor]

No, unfortunately I never had the opportunity to stick my dick into a vagina (or an anus). I'm sure it feels like... edging yourself?

If feels amazing to stick your dick in a wet and warm inviting innie vagina. Even better when the owner of said vagina actually loves you to bits. Also shooting your load in a real vagina is a memorable experience

 

[AsgardTheFatcel]

If feels amazing to stick your dick in a wet and warm inviting innie vagina. Even better when the owner of said vagina actually loves you to bits. Also shooting your load in a real vagina is a memorable experience

Are you still a virgin? I'm not going to pay for it, quite honestly.

 

[WestEuropoor]

Are you still a virgin? I'm not going to pay for it, quite honestly.

Did you even fucking read my thread

 

[AsgardTheFatcel]

Did you even fucking read me thread

My short term memory isn't really good. I tend to forget things like your typical 20B LLM with little context (with no vectorial database) because of your limited GPU VRAM + 16GB RAM.

 

[WestEuropoor]

If feels amazing to stick your dick in a wet and warm inviting innie vagina. Even better when the owner of said vagina actually loves you to bits. Also shooting your load in a real vagina is a memorable experience

And replies

 

[AsgardTheFatcel]

And replies

You know I like to imagine fantasy worlds where I get to experience sex through AI Dungeon? Check it out, it's text adventure RPG powered by LLMs like Llama 3 or even WizardLM from Microsoft.

 

[kanashimi no umi]

Sometimes i have flashbacks of these times

I still somewhat regularly dream of my ex from 10 years ago even though I haven't talked to her ever since we parted

 

[FlorentLBelle]

You're extremely attractive

 

[fries]

Sometimes i have flashbacks of these times when we looked into our eyes or she would playfully stick out her tongue after i said something stupid to mock her. I am so sorry for losing you and for what i did. I can never change, this is what i am and what i will always be. I just hope she is happy. I didn't deserve what she gave me.

If feels amazing to stick your dick in a wet and warm inviting innie vagina. Even better when the owner of said vagina actually loves you to bits. Also shooting your load in a real vagina is a memorable experience

This transsexual has over 4k posts here and still has no idea how to write about longing for intimacy, a truly lost cause
"Muh dick stick vagina", bravo