I can not handle it anymore

[fazz35]

Well, this photo represents my whole life. Since I started getting bullied at school I locked myself in my room and didn't come out for years. I spent many years lying in bed under the covers. Not long ago I attempted suicide but unfortunately it went badly. I have nothing to live for, I have no friends, I have no job, I have no girlfriend and my parents hate me. I think I will attempt suicide again in the future because I can't take it anymore.

 

[despera]

Im so sorry friend. Its not your fault. Getting bullied really tramautises victims but normies and schools dont do anything to prevent this. Such an hypocrite world

 

[IGiveUp]

How bad was the bullying if it made you become a shut in for the rest of your life?

 

[fazz35]

How bad was the bullying if it made you become a shut in for the rest of your life?

Insults, humiliations in class such as pulling down my pants in front of girls, physical assaults, stalking under my house, etc.

 

[IGiveUp]

Insults, humiliations in class such as pulling down my pants in front of girls, physical assaults, stalking under my house, etc.

You know, not to sound like a glowie or anything. But if they already ruined your life why not try doing something about it, get revenge or something. Rotting inside forever is making them win, either learn to move on or do something as payback. Can’t throw your life away and if you are at least throw it away doing something

 

[fazz35]

You know, not to sound like a glowie or anything. But if they already ruined your life why not try doing something about it, get revenge or something. Rotting inside forever is making them win, either learn to move on or do something as payback. Can’t throw your life away and if you are at least throw it away doing something

And what revenge could I take? Now the years have passed and they're all out of town in rich places living it up at their high paying jobs

 

[Deleted member 934]

Rotting indoors all day is comfy with a good set up
Most people nowadays rarely leave their home except for work

 

[IGiveUp]

And what revenge could I take? Now the years have passed and they're all out of town in rich places living it up at their high paying jobs

Dunno that’s up to you but revenge is fueled by rage not money, you know that much already. You can do that or just move on like already have, sobbing all your life will just make you feel more like shit try to break the cycle

 

[Vale]

Insults, humiliations in class such as pulling down my pants in front of girls, physical assaults, stalking under my house, etc.

Sorry man

 

[Procul]

I'm sorry, brother. But there's still hope, your life doesn't have to remain this way forever. Please don't give up.

 

[Deleted member 1961]

Sorry to hear that. Listen dont give up and stay strong. As much as you have the suicide fuel to take your life away it aint worth it. Believe me stay strong. Anyways we love you any venting you got to say you can text mr personally etc.

 

[Haruhi Suzumiya]

You should find a way to get money and live on your own when you grow older instead of giving up, it's never too late, to at least find some peace and live in a comfy place, sure working migh suck but in your case you don't have many alternatives.

 

[poorcel]

A girlfriend will solve all my problems

 

[Thadman]

Now the years have passed and they're all out of town in rich places living it up at their high paying jobs

Its when you realize that the hollywood propaganda narrative of school bullies growing up to be deadbeat losers and the bullied becoming rich and successful in their adult life is bullshit

 

[Vale]

A girlfriend will solve all my problems

 

[Dyinghope]

I was bullied too, but still had a few friends at least up until my 20s. I went through a serious shut in phase from my late 20s that lasted around 14 years, unemployed and nobody to see or talk to. I eventually took an overdose, although it was mainly experimenting as I was so bored and fed up really. It was nice to feel something "different" even just in my state of reality.

3 days in intensive care at hospital, then sent home with no offer of helping me. I felt bad for my parents putting them through that, but they said nothing really and things carried on as normal.

That cycle of constantly at home only ended because I got a crappy job, but then back in my bedroom alone mostly. I used to take my dog for a walk, but she got cancer and was put down.

I don't know what to suggest, I tried making new friends and also tinder and online dating but I'm never liked by anyone, nevermind the ones I actually find attractive.

Take small steps to do try and do more maybe, try anything. We're all going to die one day regardless.

 

[Polar-Z]

Listen boys. If any of you serious about suicide. I doubt it. Then for the love of God make it seem accidental.

 

[Failednormie_]

Im going through extreme Hardships trying to find a job, I came here from .is cause you guys seem to talk about it more. It is really hell. Im in the same position as you But for not as long.

Cant find min wage jobs and im under 20 its ridiculous

 

[fazz35]

Im going through extreme Hardships trying to find a job, I came here from .is cause you guys seem to talk about it more. It is really hell. Im in the same position as you But for not as long.

Cant find min wage jobs and im under 20 its ridiculous

I've even been rejected by a call center and a fast food restaurant... and I have a pretty good CV. Crazy

 

[ramcel]

same here bro, just can't take this anymore all this effert to survive and wither away. never had a chance, no friends or hopes. It's shit life.

 

[god.ly]

Insults, humiliations in class such as pulling down my pants in front of girls, physical assaults, stalking under my house, etc.

And you did nothing?

 

[fazz35]

And you did nothing?

I tried to defend myself and tell my parents and teachers but it didn't help

 

[god.ly]

I tried to defend myself and tell my parents and teachers but it didn't help

How did you defend yoursefl?
How did they compare to you phisically?

 

[fazz35]

How did you defend yoursefl?
How did they compare to you phisically?

I tried to respond to their insults or to defend myself when they tried to hit me

 

[Thadman]

Im going through extreme Hardships trying to find a job, I came here from .is cause you guys seem to talk about it more. It is really hell. Im in the same position as you But for not as long.

Cant find min wage jobs and im under 20 its ridiculous

It really is hell-like out there, it took me 6 months to find a proper job and that was out of luck considering it was the only location that didn't use shady hiring practices or favoritism within their ranks.

Even fast food restaurants or warehouses will reject you unless you have serious clout or status of some sort to back you, at this point the apply section on company websites are futile because they check those last.

 

[SoupaSilva]

Im going through extreme Hardships trying to find a job, I came here from .is cause you guys seem to talk about it more. It is really hell. Im in the same position as you But for not as long.

Cant find min wage jobs and im under 20 its ridiculous

Have you tried agencies? I tend to get more opportunities to work from them (even after extended unemployment) but often decline/back out last minute because I don't like the companies/role.

 

[Riddler]

That part tbh bullying in developmental years stays with you for life but may as well keep fighting otherwise you let them win