Riddler
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- Oct 18, 2023
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This forum is almost my age when it happened to me. I really wanted this to be something I just made up and not something I suppressed but then I brought it to my mother, and the timeline and everything lines up. I half wanted to keep pretending it didn't happen and half shout and tell the world
I used to think I suppressed it until I was strong enough to handle it, and now it's so far in the past that it doesn't matter. But this incident induced 20 years of foolish, pathetic, attention seeking behavior.
He took my childhood And basically my entire life so he might as well have killed me. And I wonder why he didn't
The same thing happened to lanza, his pediatrician got arrested for doing to other which makes me wonder if they know how to target weird autistic boys like us because they know we're usually nonverbal and can't speak out
I really don't know why he didn't kill me because even a suicide now wouldn't be my own. And violence like that on an infant is easily lethal, so a dead infant in 2004 or whenever seems more dignified a life as any i'll be able to live
I used to think I suppressed it until I was strong enough to handle it, and now it's so far in the past that it doesn't matter. But this incident induced 20 years of foolish, pathetic, attention seeking behavior.
He took my childhood And basically my entire life so he might as well have killed me. And I wonder why he didn't
The same thing happened to lanza, his pediatrician got arrested for doing to other which makes me wonder if they know how to target weird autistic boys like us because they know we're usually nonverbal and can't speak out
I really don't know why he didn't kill me because even a suicide now wouldn't be my own. And violence like that on an infant is easily lethal, so a dead infant in 2004 or whenever seems more dignified a life as any i'll be able to live
