Venting I hate being good looking

UglyBastard

UglyBastard

People die when they are killed
Mar 28, 2023
1,160
1696121312130
I hate that. I'm not extraordinarily beautiful or anything, but apparently enough to attract attention. I hate not being taken seriously for anything, because my only job in life is to look good for other people's amusement. I hate it when I like something strange, it's "quirky" or "cute", when if I were any less attractive, it would be considered strange and socially unacceptable. I'm tired of people being surprised that I'm intelligent, because beautiful people shouldn't be. I'm tired of girls who only want to be with me because of my face and body and simply ignore who I am deep inside. I'm tired of people's expectations that I should be in a relationship or looking for one, because that's what beautiful people do. I still have days when I look in the mirror and feel disgusting. I'm tired of hearing people tell me that I have no reason to be depressed. I KNOW THAT. It's a shame I have a chemical imbalance in my brain; I didn't ask for it. I'm tired of wearing certain clothes and hearing people tell me not to wear them because their girlfriends can't stop looking at me. I'm tired of people telling me I can't be a NEET because NEETing is for ugly girls. I'm tired of hearing people tell me what I should be because of something I have no control over.
I didn't choose my face, stop trying to choose who I am.
 
UglyBastard

UglyBastard

People die when they are killed
Mar 28, 2023
1,160
Damn it must suck to have Becky and Stacy's drooling over u
I tried to treat them badly lately but it can't be helped, they keep drooling over me, trying to touch my abs, trying to steal a kiss from me, groping my dick etc. It's a pain in the ass.
Things could be much better if I were born ugly.
 
UglyBastard

UglyBastard

People die when they are killed
Mar 28, 2023
1,160
Things that never happened
I got so fed up with it that I intentionally gained 4 kilos, let my hair grow (I don't have the face shape for it), stopped wearing /fa/ clothes (not that I want them to fit my current shape), stopped wearing flattering suits (only using flat and clean ones now), simply stopped looking after myself. I tried to look ugly. I get very defensive when compliment me. I don't feel better. I thought: "If I'm ugly, at least I'll know if people really like me". I was wrong. And not just because now I push people away because I'm so disgusted with myself that I can't believe they honestly want to be around me. I'm so upset with my appearance that I'm unhappy and, anyway, I'm not myself anymore. It's over, over.
 
Thadman

Thadman

NEET
Sep 6, 2023
3,695
I got so fed up with it that I intentionally gained 4 kilos, let my hair grow (I don't have the face shape for it), stopped wearing /fa/ clothes (not that I want them to fit my current shape), stopped wearing flattering suits (only using flat and clean ones now), simply stopped looking after myself. I tried to look ugly. I get very defensive when compliment me. I don't feel better. I thought: "If I'm ugly, at least I'll know if people really like me". I was wrong. And not just because now I push people away because I'm so disgusted with myself that I can't believe they honestly want to be around me. I'm so upset with my appearance that I'm unhappy and, anyway, I'm not myself anymore. It's over, over.
Lol no girl will try to force kiss or try to grab your dick at random. Or maybe my experience has been radically different from the typical?
 
『 』

『 』

Tat Tvam Asi
Dec 13, 2020
6,626
View attachment 90979I hate that. I'm not extraordinarily beautiful or anything, but apparently enough to attract attention. I hate not being taken seriously for anything, because my only job in life is to look good for other people's amusement. I hate it when I like something strange, it's "quirky" or "cute", when if I were any less attractive, it would be considered strange and socially unacceptable. I'm tired of people being surprised that I'm intelligent, because beautiful people shouldn't be. I'm tired of girls who only want to be with me because of my face and body and simply ignore who I am deep inside. I'm tired of people's expectations that I should be in a relationship or looking for one, because that's what beautiful people do. I still have days when I look in the mirror and feel disgusting. I'm tired of hearing people tell me that I have no reason to be depressed. I KNOW THAT. It's a shame I have a chemical imbalance in my brain; I didn't ask for it. I'm tired of wearing certain clothes and hearing people tell me not to wear them because their girlfriends can't stop looking at me. I'm tired of people telling me I can't be a NEET because NEETing is for ugly girls. I'm tired of hearing people tell me what I should be because of something I have no control over.
I didn't choose my face, stop trying to choose who I am.
Peasants hate the king for his wealth
The king hates others for their vanity
 
UglyBastard

UglyBastard

People die when they are killed
Mar 28, 2023
1,160
Peasants hate the king for his wealth
The king hates others for their vanity
You sound very smart, makes me feel like a fucking dumb mongrel.
 
Activity
So far there's no one here

Similar threads

404Errorcel
Replies
0
Views
127
404Errorcel
404Errorcel
poorcel
Replies
11
Views
167
yoc
yoc
Riddler
Replies
7
Views
172
inertiacel
inertiacel
Top