Venting I hate halloween.. and everyone included

[eufori____]

This goes for any holiday in general. I scroll through social media and see everyones stories who went to parties or did something fun while I rot in my bed doing absolutely nothing. Im tired of telling myself "there's always next year" but nothing ever changes. For the majority of my life it has always been like this. No cope will ever make me feel better about my life. Im so disappointed in myself.