
Broken&Ruined
NEET
- May 27, 2023
- 498
Literally at no point in my life I could have ever said to 'peaked'. Closest comes to when I was 13 and it was very brief kek. I have literally been a complete and utter loser my entire life.
-> Poor in Studies and Academics
-> Poor in Sports and Athletics
-> Zero Interesting Hobbies
-> Below average height and appearance.
-> No real friends. At best I had people who found me tolerable or I had friendships where I put all the effort and it was all unreciprocated and I was generally treated as an extra or unimportant.
-> Too much of an sperg to even talk to girls so no gf.
-> Suffer from various mental illnesses such as OCD, Generalised Anxiety Disorder etc which makes studies and socialising even harder.
-> Developed Terminally Online Syndrome since 16 and got deep into brain frying internet arguements and mostly made a fool of myself. These arguements must have consumed months out of my life.
-> Wasted an entire academic year preparing for an exam I couldn't even get decent marks in and wasted my parents money.
-> Low T beta personality. I am easily insulted, mocked and pushed around.
JFuckingL. It's insane just how much of a loser I am. My entire life has been wracked and ruined by anxiety and all attempts at fixing myself or doing better has ended in tremendous failure. I should probably blow my brains out with a Shotgun.
Right now I am enrolled in a degree which is supremely hard and high IQ in a College I didn't want to attend. It's one giant humiliation ritual in me. Normies academics and intelligence mogg me and belittle me.
-> Poor in Studies and Academics
-> Poor in Sports and Athletics
-> Zero Interesting Hobbies
-> Below average height and appearance.
-> No real friends. At best I had people who found me tolerable or I had friendships where I put all the effort and it was all unreciprocated and I was generally treated as an extra or unimportant.
-> Too much of an sperg to even talk to girls so no gf.
-> Suffer from various mental illnesses such as OCD, Generalised Anxiety Disorder etc which makes studies and socialising even harder.
-> Developed Terminally Online Syndrome since 16 and got deep into brain frying internet arguements and mostly made a fool of myself. These arguements must have consumed months out of my life.
-> Wasted an entire academic year preparing for an exam I couldn't even get decent marks in and wasted my parents money.
-> Low T beta personality. I am easily insulted, mocked and pushed around.
JFuckingL. It's insane just how much of a loser I am. My entire life has been wracked and ruined by anxiety and all attempts at fixing myself or doing better has ended in tremendous failure. I should probably blow my brains out with a Shotgun.
Right now I am enrolled in a degree which is supremely hard and high IQ in a College I didn't want to attend. It's one giant humiliation ritual in me. Normies academics and intelligence mogg me and belittle me.