Depression I have been a complete and utter loser my whole life

Broken&Ruined

Broken&Ruined

NEET
May 27, 2023
498
Literally at no point in my life I could have ever said to 'peaked'. Closest comes to when I was 13 and it was very brief kek. I have literally been a complete and utter loser my entire life.

-> Poor in Studies and Academics
-> Poor in Sports and Athletics
-> Zero Interesting Hobbies
-> Below average height and appearance.
-> No real friends. At best I had people who found me tolerable or I had friendships where I put all the effort and it was all unreciprocated and I was generally treated as an extra or unimportant.
-> Too much of an sperg to even talk to girls so no gf.
-> Suffer from various mental illnesses such as OCD, Generalised Anxiety Disorder etc which makes studies and socialising even harder.
-> Developed Terminally Online Syndrome since 16 and got deep into brain frying internet arguements and mostly made a fool of myself. These arguements must have consumed months out of my life.
-> Wasted an entire academic year preparing for an exam I couldn't even get decent marks in and wasted my parents money.
-> Low T beta personality. I am easily insulted, mocked and pushed around.

JFuckingL. It's insane just how much of a loser I am. My entire life has been wracked and ruined by anxiety and all attempts at fixing myself or doing better has ended in tremendous failure. I should probably blow my brains out with a Shotgun.

Right now I am enrolled in a degree which is supremely hard and high IQ in a College I didn't want to attend. It's one giant humiliation ritual in me. Normies academics and intelligence mogg me and belittle me.
 
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NeetKing

NEET
Mar 10, 2022
56
Literally at no point in my life I could have ever said to 'peaked'. Closest comes to when I was 13 and it was very brief kek. I have literally been a complete and utter loser my entire life.

-> Poor in Studies and Academics
-> Poor in Sports and Athletics
-> Zero Interesting Hobbies
-> Below average height and appearance.
-> No real friends. At best I had people who found me tolerable or I had friendships where I put all the effort and it was all unreciprocated and I was generally treated as an extra or unimportant.
-> Too much of an sperg to even talk to girls so no gf.
-> Suffer from various mental illnesses such as OCD, Generalised Anxiety Disorder etc which makes studies and socialising even harder.
-> Developed Terminally Online Syndrome since 16 and got deep into brain frying internet arguements and mostly made a fool of myself. These arguements must have consumed months out of my life.
-> Wasted an entire academic year preparing for an exam I couldn't even get decent marks in and wasted my parents money.
-> Low T beta personality. I am easily insulted, mocked and pushed around.

JFuckingL. It's insane just how much of a loser I am. My entire life has been wracked and ruined by anxiety and all attempts at fixing myself or doing better has ended in tremendous failure. I should probably blow my brains out with a Shotgun.

Right now I am enrolled in a degree which is supremely hard and high IQ in a College I didn't want to attend. It's one giant humiliation ritual in me. Normies academics and intelligence mogg me and belittle me.

same i was bullied. honestly if someone is attacking you it means hes a retard and his only way of elevating himself is at the expense of others. which is basically most of people lmao.
i dont know where such aggressiveness comes from, it never appealed to me
if you get attacked u need to 1. get rid of such people from your life. if you already did that or cant do that and it still happens then 2. do gym and/or martial arts

unfortunately schools are designed in a way that you cant get rid of such people so you need to get a bit violent with them. theyre designed to make you suffer

also that loser thing is just a cope in the end everyone dies as a loser anyways. and it doesnt matter what society sees u as cause theyre mostly hiveminded npcs who cant think on their own
 
MelaninQueen

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Friezacel

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If it makes you feel better, im also a total loser in life. But remember that most of the reasons for our failures, like being a manlet or being a sperg is out of our control and our fate was sealed the second our dads sperm reached our mothers eggs, aka it literally never began.
 
クーロ

クーロ

عثمان دان فوديو الثاني
Jan 23, 2024
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Me too brother. Most of the time none of this is within your control but you still have time to make something out of it
 
Broken&Ruined

Broken&Ruined

NEET
May 27, 2023
498
If it makes you feel better, im also a total loser in life. But remember that most of the reasons for our failures, like being a manlet or being a sperg is out of our control and our fate was sealed the second our dads sperm reached our mothers eggs, aka it literally never began.
I don't know. Neurotypical ugly guys seem to lead pretty decent lives.
 
Broken&Ruined

Broken&Ruined

NEET
May 27, 2023
498
Me too brother. Most of the time none of this is within your control but you still have time to make something out of it
How do you suppose I would do that ?
 
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Jan 10, 2024
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Same here but I guess I was smart in school, doesn't matter when in real life I'm anything but. Best to just work on yourself and keep grinding IMO, it's not really your fault for being incompetent as a kid because you're supposed to be taught this stuff.
 
クーロ

クーロ

عثمان دان فوديو الثاني
Jan 23, 2024
5,205
How do you suppose I would do that ?
Honestly I don't know. I'm in your same situation and have been for years. I'm just saying this to hopefully give you some motivation. The fact that you're this self aware shows you know exactly what your problem is, how you'd go about fixing it is a different story but nonetheless I offer my support. Hanging on subhuman forums will only make it worse though. Maybe try working on your diet
 
Broken&Ruined

Broken&Ruined

NEET
May 27, 2023
498
if ur only 20 you got alot of life left to live. try to do something interesting in your 20s, even just one thing. while you have the energy and less responsibility.
Damn 20 is young ? For me it feels really old. 16 and below seems young for me. Guess as your grow older your responsibilities keep on increasing.
 
Broken&Ruined

Broken&Ruined

NEET
May 27, 2023
498
Same here but I guess I was smart in school, doesn't matter when in real life I'm anything but. Best to just work on yourself and keep grinding IMO, it's not really your fault for being incompetent as a kid because you're supposed to be taught this stuff.
If you were smart in School couldn't you just go to a prestigious Uni, get a degree in STEM or Law and become a big shot rich man ? That's what I wanted to do.
 
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Jan 10, 2024
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If you were smart in School couldn't you just go to a prestigious Uni, get a degree in STEM or Law and become a big shot rich man ? That's what I wanted to do.
I wasn't anywhere near decisive and firm enough in my mid to late teens
 
ramcel

ramcel

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Jan 9, 2023
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Same here pretty much was too naive and stupid in uni and got fucked if I had picked easier subjects though I wouldn't have gotten clapped, Not to mention I had paranoia that prevented me from studying as hard. It was depressing at least I get neetbux.
 
λ-calculus

λ-calculus

Documenting my journey to the sewer
Oct 24, 2023
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I relate to many parts of this, but I did have a time period when I was wining at life, this created expectations of me that I failed to fulfill and I became the failure that I am now.
 
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