i have not been alive since a long time

[Deleted member 2717]

i have always known this fact. but yesterday i kept thinking about it and today i decided to ask if also other NEETs experience the same thing or have overcame it. i remember barely anything from the past. only super duper major stuff. i barely have any memories of my childhood or any "friends" back then. i also always forget things i do after a couple of minutes. my eyes always seem to be blurred. not as in blurred literally but blurred as i am dozed off but in reality i am still aware. my hearing is also muffled. most of the actions i do aren't even commanded by me it feels like i have been in a auto pilot mode for the past 6 years. i also don't even enjoy my hobbies as i am doing them in the auto pilot mode. everything is done automatically, i concluded that the reason i don't remember stuff is because i am not aware while doing them. i do not see nor hear because i am just sat dozed off. this happens while playing vidya, going outside, interacting with people, literally doing anything. it makes everything monotonous and unmemorable. i am unsure if this is happening because i am a NEET or because of another reason. i am completly healthy and excersice regularly. i have been feeling like this since highschool. i graduated 3 years ago. has any other NEET expirenced this or overcame it?

 

[Neet194012940]

Most people who make 200k/year feel the same way, everything is monotonous and routine after high school, autopiloting and doing the same thing year after year

 

[MelaninQueen]

Most people who make 200k/year feel the same way, everything is monotonous and routine after high school, autopiloting and doing the same thing year after year

do you believe in singularity happening in the next three decades? of course it won't be an utopia, but i still believe agi will radically change western society... for the worse, that is.

 

[Deleted member 2717]

Most people who make 200k/year feel the same way, everything is monotonous and routine after high school, autopiloting and doing the same thing year after year

is there a way to break out of the loop? the only thing that brings happiness now is instant cheap pleasure like sweets, jerking off, drugs extra. high pleasure like hobbies serve me nothing.