Venting I just don't understand why i'm lonely

[Baker]

I'm too autistic. There is something in my personality that haunts people, even those that were friendly to me since the start. But i just can't grasp it, i can't decipher what's wrong with me.
I wish normies were more direct, i would love a person telling me "i hate you because of this:" and then proceed to enumerate the things that he dislikes. I want to know why, but they don't tell me, they just talk behind my back, ignore me, and fake a smile when engaging with me.

I don't have an active social life since i was kid, i practically wasted my teenage years and i'm scared to waste my 20's too. I don't do nothing other than wagecucking (yes, i'm an honorary neet, for now), then go to the gym, and then go home and rot there until the next day.

I feel that most people in the street reject me, i perceive how they avoid me. The only people that don't are the elders, maybe because most of them are alone just like me, and there is some sort of energy-matching. I don't know.

 

[Deleted member 3340]

I relate
At kiddie primary school my autism started hitting and people started leaving me.
At high school i had like a single friend for 2 years then friendless for like 7 years now.
All i do is temp jobs to make some money and jerk off in plastic bags after humping the pillow

 

[Baker]

I relate
At kiddie primary school my autism started hitting and people started leaving me.
At high school i had like a single friend for 2 years then friendless for like 7 years now.
All i do is temp jobs to make some money and jerk off in plastic bags after humping the pillow

Do you think it gets better?

 

[Baker]

I feel that most people just "tolerate" me. Because they don't have a valid reason to be agressive or mean, but they want one.

I don't think it's my looks. Sure, i'm short, i have a big nose, i'm too skinny and i have an ugly smile. But i've seen people much uglier than me doing much better in life

 

[Deleted member 3340]

Do you think it gets better?

No you cant undo being an autist
Doing antidepressant just fucked my limp dick even more and made me feel like trash.
Im studying for nursing(radio) and i will try to get a job in mental problems hospital.
Place is full of free puss just waiting to be picked

 

[Baker]

No you cant undo being an autist
Doing antidepressant just fucked my limp dick even more and made me feel like trash.
Im studying for nursing(radio) and i will try to get a job in mental problems hospital.
Place is full of free puss just waiting to be picked

Cool, wish u luck brocel

 

[Baker]

I still feel like this