I mentally can’t even go outside anymore

[Deleted member 2794]

I don’t know what it is but I keep hearing voices, almost as if I could read people’s minds. It’s like my brain is constantly telling me what people think of me, or mocking whatever I’m doing at the moment.

I keep thinking back on past deeds I’ve done and I can’t fucking take it anymore, I objectively have a shit fucking life. I’m fucking atrocious to look at, my face is objectively one step before being deformed. I’m inducing myself to vomit just thinking about my ugly fucking disgusting subhuman ethnic fucking face.

Just going outside is a fucking humiliation ritual, fucking disgusting it should be illegal for a cockroach like me to even be alive.

I can tell my my father wishes he used a condom and my mother can’t believe she birthed a subhuman like me.

It’s just not fucking fair, life is a fucking travesty if you’re sub5. I don’t even know what emotion to feel anymore but at the very least the awareness of being incarnated as myself, disgusts me.




Is it even possible to escape NEETdom?

 

[iDONTwannaBeME]

Who do you look like? What kind of ethnic are you? not trying to insult you but maybe you have that mental disorder trans have,body dysmorphia

And about the "voices", i relate in that i used to be hyperaware of everything around me when i went out, but I fixed it, well my brain did. I see people as entities that have no life except when they see me, if that makes sense.

 

[Deleted member 2794]

Who do you look like? What kind of ethnic are you? not trying to insult you but maybe you have that mental disorder trans have,body dysmorphia

And about the "voices", i relate in that i used to be hyperaware of everything around me when i went out, but I fixed it, well my brain did. I see people as entities that have no life except when they see me, if that makes sense.

I look like a young middle eastern version of George Lopez if he had a mole on his nose. I’m a brown South Amerimutt.

It’s fucking insane I can’t fucking escape the voices but it’s only been happening recently and I’ve barely even used any drugs in the past 3 years. I do have a past of drug use but this only started now, and I can’t pin point if this caused by social withdraw and “isolation” or early onset schizophrenia.

 

[iDONTwannaBeME]

I look like a young middle eastern version of George Lopez if he had a mole on his nose. I’m a brown South Amerimutt.

It’s fucking insane I can’t fucking escape the voices but it’s only been happening recently and I’ve barely even used any drugs in the past 3 years. I do have a past of drug use but this only started now, and I can’t pin point if this caused by social withdraw and “isolation” or early onset schizophrenia.

take your aripiprazole!

 

[Deleted member 2794]

take your aripiprazole!

I don’t think I’m schizo

 

[iDONTwannaBeME]

I don’t think I’m schizo

what a shizo would say...

 

[Deleted member 2794]

what a shizo would say...

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Hell no… IT CANT BE

 

[Truckzo]

I used to be the exact same way, always feeling like everyone was paying attention to anything I did. The only time I found comfort was in my dirty hot cum smelling room. I think its an illusion brought on by past trauma! were you bullied OP?

 

[Deleted member 2794]

I used to be the exact same way, always feeling like everyone was paying attention to anything I did. The only time I found comfort was in my dirty hot cum smelling room. I think its an illusion brought on by past trauma! were you bullied OP?

Yes, I’ve tried bullying as well but as always I’m put back in my place lol. I feel like I’ve just become a complete retarded smooth brain from being locked in my room just playing video games from the night I wake up to the time I go to sleep.

 

[Truckzo]

Yes, I’ve tried bullying as well but as always I’m put back in my place lol. I feel like I’ve just become a complete retarded smooth brain from being locked in my room just playing video games from the night I wake up to the time I go to sleep.

I kinda think its that you're used to others treating you badly and with this negative image you've made for yourself you think people see you as what you've made yourself out to be you know? I truly don't think that adults are so up each other's asses and looking at what inklers and neets are doing whenever they get the chance

 

[Papa Roxy]

these days is hard for me to go outside too im a ashamed of my existence i dont think i belong next to people

 

[Moondust]

I used to be the exact same way, always feeling like everyone was paying attention to anything I did. The only time I found comfort was in my dirty hot cum smelling room. I think its an illusion brought on by past trauma! were you bullied OP?

It might be trauma but it could also just be plain old social anxiety. What he said are all hallmark symptoms

 

[incelkingkong]

randoms dont give a fuck about your existence. 100000x so when you're ugly

 

[johnvee]

Get mental help or wallow in schizophrenia, because you're probably schizophrenic, and if you are then you're a burden to everyone, just see a fucking psychiatrist.