I texted my oneitis for the first time in 8 months today

[Deleted member 3092]

The story about my oneitis is long, and im too lazy to type all that shit here, so I'll just copy and paste one of my .org vent threads here for context on how I feel about this girl:

"I wouldn't say she was my oneitis, but she was close to it. I felt something inside me whenever she interacted with me, even just a simple 'hi' made my day. She was never my girlfriend. I was chasing her for 2 years. I stopped when she friendzoned me. I just can't seem to forget her, I feel like the emotions she induced in me can never be replicated by anyone ever again. I NEED to forget what she made me feel, I've been trying for months, but when I think of her, I start falling in love again."

(The first sentence is a lie, she was indeed my oneitis)

She gave me her number due to circumstances. I texted her because I remember it being her birthday today. I have 0 hope for building any kind of deep connection with her, but fuck it. I texted her just to text her.

I still love her ngl but I know the truth about women now. I can't spit out the blackpill, since I already digested it.

 

[Deleted member 3092]

Got a positive response, im scared to elaborate further for privacy reasons better safe than sorry or whatever

 

[Deleted member 2825]

if you manage to spark a beautiful relationship, leave this shithole immediately and never look back

 

[Deleted member 3092]

if you manage to spark a beautiful relationship, leave this shithole immediately and never look back

I don't think I'll be able to, but yeah man, the only reason im on these forums is because im not in a relationship. I honestly would stop rotting as a whole if I got into one somehow.

 

[Deleted member 2241]

All my past oneitises hurt my soul so much that I can't have a crush on a girl like I used to. In general so many women have been cruel to me. It's sad because all I do is try to make women laugh, I'm just awkward and scared of them.

 

[Deleted member 3092]

All my past oneitises hurt my soul so much that I can't have a crush on a girl like I used to. In general so many women have been cruel to me. It's sad because all I do is try to make women laugh, I'm just awkward and scared of them.

I can relate to everything except the last part. I tried to make women laugh and somehow it worked, but till that point I had some really "blackpilling" experiences with women, and I don't even think I looked subhuman back then, I was just fat

 

[Deleted member 2241]

I can relate to everything except the last part. I tried to make women laugh and somehow it worked, but till that point I had some really "blackpilling" experiences with women, and I don't even think I looked subhuman back then, I was just fat

I don't know or care if I'm subhuman or incel, I'm just awkward and spergy and I can't relate to women. I can't talk to them without sweating, I can't talk to them without knowing they laugh at me behind my back. Sometimes at night I'll think about all the girls that have asked me out as a joke or the times I've been rejected and it makes me hate my existence.

 

[Deleted member 3092]

I don't know or care if I'm subhuman or incel, I'm just awkward and spergy and I can't relate to women. I can't talk to them without sweating, I can't talk to them without knowing they laugh at me behind my back. Sometimes at night I'll think about all the girls that have asked me out as a joke or the times I've been rejected and it makes me hate my existence.

Same man, same. The last part hits. I've been rejected 30+ times. Girls have never asked me out as a joke, because they didn't even want to be romantically associated with me. And akwardness is funny too sometimes, but they'll be laughing at you and not with you. I took advantage of that though. I slowly went from awkward introvert to social extrovert, with practice.

 

[burn]

I'm just awkward and spergy and I can't relate to women. I can't talk to them without sweating, I can't talk to them without knowing they laugh at me behind my back.

Yup thats how i messed up every chance i had
Non nt+no experience will kill u even if ur good looking

 

[Deleted member 3092]

Yup thats how i messed up every chance i had
Non nt+no experience will kill u even if ur good looking

Only looks fuk me up, I wish I looked better, I have everything else

 

[burn]

Only looks fuk me up, I wish I looked better, I have everything else

Better looks will give u more respect but trust me they really cant save an abused dog like me

 

[Deleted member 2241]

Same man, same. The last part hits. I've been rejected 30+ times. Girls have never asked me out as a joke, because they didn't even want to be romantically associated with me. And akwardness is funny too sometimes, but they'll be laughing at you and not with you. I took advantage of that though. I slowly went from awkward introvert to social extrovert, with practice.

It's horrible because they are making it clear to YOU that dating you is a joke to them. That they can't imagine a girl dating you.

Yup thats how i messed up every chance i had
Non nt+no experience will kill u even if ur good looking

Shit genetics, extreme anxiety and autism, and depressive/sucicidal moments have ruined any chances for me to get a girl.