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Documenting my journey to the sewer
- Oct 24, 2023
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Today I woke up feeling particularly bad, I reflected on my past interactions with women and realized how none of them ever cared about me. I was always the one constantly reaching, essentially begging for their attention, while they treated me coldly. I was trying to talk to this bitch on Reddit who is apparently "lonely", turns out she gets hundreds of messages a week and she just gives one word replies and sometimes just one emoji replies to me. It's almost as if all women got together on a meeting and decided to ostracize me, decided that I wasn't good enough for them, that time spent with me is wasted time.
All I wanted was to meet someone I could care for and who would care about me. I would fantasize about having daily conversations with this theoretical person, ask them about their day and listen closely, gift them birthday presents, and have their back no matter what. And I messaged women (and even men) with this intention, and yet all I got back was one word replies and constant ghosting. Both online and irl.
I mean, if I was one of those guys that messages women just to ask for nudes or send them dick pics as an Exhibitionism fetish, then I would understand them not wanting to talk to me, but when all I wanted was to develop a strong connection and got constantly rejected, how can I not feel bitter? Especially when those bitches just go on to talk about how lonely they are and how nobody wants them, I guess I must be nobody then.
So yeah, today I woke up feeling extremely bitter, I resent everyone, but I especially resent women, since I am attracted to them and so it hurts more when they are the ones rejecting me. Everyone thinks they're so much better than me, that their time is so much better spent with someone else other than me because it is just sooooo torturous to be around me. Whatever... Fuck everyone else. I don't want your friendships anymore, from now on I'll be the one giving one word replies and ignoring everyone. I'll be a hermit and live on my own. Fuck everyone else. Just like they only message me when they need something from me, I'll only message people for stuff like if I miss a class ask them what the teacher did during the class. That's about it.
All I wanted was to meet someone I could care for and who would care about me. I would fantasize about having daily conversations with this theoretical person, ask them about their day and listen closely, gift them birthday presents, and have their back no matter what. And I messaged women (and even men) with this intention, and yet all I got back was one word replies and constant ghosting. Both online and irl.
I mean, if I was one of those guys that messages women just to ask for nudes or send them dick pics as an Exhibitionism fetish, then I would understand them not wanting to talk to me, but when all I wanted was to develop a strong connection and got constantly rejected, how can I not feel bitter? Especially when those bitches just go on to talk about how lonely they are and how nobody wants them, I guess I must be nobody then.
So yeah, today I woke up feeling extremely bitter, I resent everyone, but I especially resent women, since I am attracted to them and so it hurts more when they are the ones rejecting me. Everyone thinks they're so much better than me, that their time is so much better spent with someone else other than me because it is just sooooo torturous to be around me. Whatever... Fuck everyone else. I don't want your friendships anymore, from now on I'll be the one giving one word replies and ignoring everyone. I'll be a hermit and live on my own. Fuck everyone else. Just like they only message me when they need something from me, I'll only message people for stuff like if I miss a class ask them what the teacher did during the class. That's about it.
