anon1822
Banned
- Apr 5, 2021
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I hate saying I have ADHD cause it feels like what an attention-seeking normie would say. But I think this is one of the primary reasons why my life is so fucked up. Well, that and the other 10 mental illnesses.
But ADHD really fucks me up. It makes everything unbearable. Anything other than just sitting glued to a screen 24/7, browsing reddit/youtube/watching a sitcom. I can't even sit through a game, I need to alt tab every 5 seconds. And I was like this since I was a little kid. Parents tried to force me to go outside but I'd always rush to be on a PC 24/7.
Too bad this country is so ass backwards on the issue. Best case scenario they recommend you therapy (which is bullshit), while labelling you as a drug seeker if you want any medicinal help. I actually googled it and no way no how will they give you ritalin or such in this country, just no way. I actually came across posts complaining about how backwards these doctors/this society is regarding the issue. God forbid you tell anyone irl you have ADHD, they'd look at you like you were a retard, or just tell you to stop being a bitch and get over it. Nevermind the 10 other things I got wrong with me lol. Regardless, with the shit wages in this country you couldn't afford the pricy medicine even if they did give it to you. But it isn't even imported here cause they're super strict and paranoid and conservative so whatever. Although, even if I were in another country, I wouldn't get medicine. Fuck spending money on psychiatrists, I'd hate spilling my guts irl, I don't like talking to people irl. Also fuck spending a lot of money on that, no way.
ADHD is the reason why I can't find any interests (well that and the depression/anhedonia). My biggest wish is for my work to be doing something I enjoy doing, so it doesn't really feel like work. I find it impossible to spend 8 hours a day doing something you don't like, I'd honestly rather drop dead right now, literally dead. But ADHD is preventing me from it, this fucking brain of mine doesn't like anything other than consuming endless content for quick dopamine. It actually feels like torture to not be lying in bed just glued to a screen. It sucks so bad, even going for a walk is unpleasant, it's like I need constant stimulation. And work is the opposite of that, it's torture.
But ADHD really fucks me up. It makes everything unbearable. Anything other than just sitting glued to a screen 24/7, browsing reddit/youtube/watching a sitcom. I can't even sit through a game, I need to alt tab every 5 seconds. And I was like this since I was a little kid. Parents tried to force me to go outside but I'd always rush to be on a PC 24/7.
Too bad this country is so ass backwards on the issue. Best case scenario they recommend you therapy (which is bullshit), while labelling you as a drug seeker if you want any medicinal help. I actually googled it and no way no how will they give you ritalin or such in this country, just no way. I actually came across posts complaining about how backwards these doctors/this society is regarding the issue. God forbid you tell anyone irl you have ADHD, they'd look at you like you were a retard, or just tell you to stop being a bitch and get over it. Nevermind the 10 other things I got wrong with me lol. Regardless, with the shit wages in this country you couldn't afford the pricy medicine even if they did give it to you. But it isn't even imported here cause they're super strict and paranoid and conservative so whatever. Although, even if I were in another country, I wouldn't get medicine. Fuck spending money on psychiatrists, I'd hate spilling my guts irl, I don't like talking to people irl. Also fuck spending a lot of money on that, no way.
ADHD is the reason why I can't find any interests (well that and the depression/anhedonia). My biggest wish is for my work to be doing something I enjoy doing, so it doesn't really feel like work. I find it impossible to spend 8 hours a day doing something you don't like, I'd honestly rather drop dead right now, literally dead. But ADHD is preventing me from it, this fucking brain of mine doesn't like anything other than consuming endless content for quick dopamine. It actually feels like torture to not be lying in bed just glued to a screen. It sucks so bad, even going for a walk is unpleasant, it's like I need constant stimulation. And work is the opposite of that, it's torture.
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