Lifestyle "I'll off myself eventually"

[クーロ]

Another year around the clock approaches and yet again comes the dreaded fate. How much must one ruminate on the idea of ack-ing themselves to go the fuck through with it? All this ideation creates is a sense of endless pessimism where none of the future matters if you believe in offing yourself "eventually" but that eventuality never comes. Excuses, plans, timings, all set together for an action I'll never do. I vomit my thoughts online, fall to the nothingness of sleep, and feel as if my mission to accomplish non-existence was complete enough to warrant another 8 hours of consciousness. If free will truly exists, I am not deserving of it. If it does not, what dastardly being dares to put me in such misery? Another year, another contemplance. Only god knows what justification I shall find to further delay my intentions until the sun rises. I bring this to myself.

TL;DR: if you want to ACK but don't do it immediately you'll end up a pessimist and ruin your life. Find new prospects homeboy

 

[Disorder]

Go for as long as you still look or feel at least a little youthful I think

 

[Pirate]

roping gives me hope

I will do a bunch of tasks and volunteer and sign up for important shit and then kill myself before the deadlines so everything's fucked up or the classic mass shooting in a mall (in metal gear solid 2)

 

[クーロ]

roping gives me hope

I will do a bunch of tasks and volunteer and sign up for important shit and then kill myself before the deadlines so everything's fucked up or the classic mass shooting in a mall (in metal gear solid 2)

T. Never used a gun before
If you assume roping will give you some post-life importance even if temporary that's ridiculous. You wouldn't be alive to experience the satisfaction of fucking up deadlines so why care anyway

You are ultimately insignificant. Once you die physically you'll have another spiritual death after 6 years when everyone forgets your name

 

[Pirate]

T. Never used a gun before
If you assume roping will give you some post-life importance even if temporary that's ridiculous. You wouldn't be alive to experience the satisfaction of fucking up deadlines so why care anyway

You are ultimately insignificant. Once you die physically you'll have another spiritual death after 6 years when everyone forgets your name

 

[クーロ]

unless you go out Columbine style of course

 

[Ritalincel]

 

[RageSpike]

Sometimes I like to play Russian roulette with a nerf gun

 

[Zangano1]

All this ideation creates is a sense of endless pessimism where none of the future matters if you believe in offing yourself "eventually" but that eventuality never comes

Yes, that sums up how I destroyed my life.
I studied shit I dont like because I was gonna kill myself before graduating. I had terrible grades because I often didnt even go to class because i was roping at the end of the year. And many other things

 

[Saladino]

roping gives me hope

I will do a bunch of tasks and volunteer and sign up for important shit and then kill myself before the deadlines so everything's fucked up or the classic mass shooting in a mall (in metal gear solid 2)

Raiden? RAIDEN!

 

[Deleted member 2206]

I'll off myself if AI doesn't take off like I want it to.
The only reason I stick around is for virtual wives and potential AGI Utopia.

 

[Deleted member 82]

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