SAYONARA22
No longer human.
- Nov 11, 2024
- 329
It doesn't feel real, i feel like I'm in a long dream that i can't wake up from.
I'm literally living the same fucking day all my life. No big events, no special things. I didn't live my life properly, my childhood was a disaster, my adolescence was very bad and wasted, I only slept, ate and studied, I did nothing else throughout my adolescence. Now that I am in my early twenties, I feel that it is my time to leave. I cannot imagine myself living another year in this mess.
Nothing has changed and nothing will change. If anything changes, it will only change for the worse. Even I haven't changed. I feel like I'm still a 10-year-old child. I can't enter adulthood. I have no future, no social skills, no hard skills, living in a shithole, very poor to do anything.
I am suffering from an existential crisis and I ask myself how I lived all these years at the same pace\ pattern, how did all this go to waste!
( Sorry for my bad English, it's not my first language)
I'm literally living the same fucking day all my life. No big events, no special things. I didn't live my life properly, my childhood was a disaster, my adolescence was very bad and wasted, I only slept, ate and studied, I did nothing else throughout my adolescence. Now that I am in my early twenties, I feel that it is my time to leave. I cannot imagine myself living another year in this mess.
Nothing has changed and nothing will change. If anything changes, it will only change for the worse. Even I haven't changed. I feel like I'm still a 10-year-old child. I can't enter adulthood. I have no future, no social skills, no hard skills, living in a shithole, very poor to do anything.
I am suffering from an existential crisis and I ask myself how I lived all these years at the same pace\ pattern, how did all this go to waste!
( Sorry for my bad English, it's not my first language)
