Depression just calculated how much i’ve spent on drugs since the start of the year

[glitch]

its over £700

so much for someone who claims £300 neetbux per month

i have a fat stash of some stuff that will last for at least another year, but about £550 just went on degenerate binges that brought me alarmingly close to death

i’m not that conscious of how “awful” my life is tbh. i don’t really care. i guess im actually pretty happy in a way.

i don’t regret it in all honesty. i was way more miserable without drugs and ive learned a lot by doing them. figuring out how my brain works, which ones make me feel good, which ones make me feel shit.

my relationship with my parents has gotten so much better since i started taking them. it got worse in the degenerate phase for sure, but we are all pretty happy at the moment. i’m focused on finding the few drugs i can use to dig myself out of what i thought was an impossibly horrible psychological situation.

i wanted to kill myself all day everyday before, and i couldn’t talk to anyone without overthinking and withdrawing from the conversation. i’m still a bit like that but im much better.

i hope to be normal by the end of the year, and somewhat successful in the next few years.

for me the drug abuse phase was a really important introspective journey. i have a very weird brain. autism, adhd and all sorts of personality traits that make it very hard for me to be happy. drugs have helped me realise that i can be different.

the difference in my thought patterns from before to now is insane.

the trajectory i see for myself is fix brain > build relationships > make money/do things that make me happy. pretty simple, pretty reasonable. it’s the only path i ever saw as viable, and i think it will work

 

[xinino]

i wanted to kill myself all day everyday

Seems drugs doesn't work very well, use ur 131 iq to solve it, i advised you to go to Psychiatrist but u refused

 

[Lain]

its over £700

so much for someone who claims £300 neetbux per month

i have a fat stash of some stuff that will last for at least another year, but about £550 just went on degenerate binges that brought me alarmingly close to death

i’m not that conscious of how “awful” my life is tbh. i don’t really care. i guess im actually pretty happy in a way.

i don’t regret it in all honesty. i was way more miserable without drugs and ive learned a lot by doing them. figuring out how my brain works, which ones make me feel good, which ones make me feel shit.

my relationship with my parents has gotten so much better since i started taking them. it got worse in the degenerate phase for sure, but we are all pretty happy at the moment. i’m focused on finding the few drugs i can use to dig myself out of what i thought was an impossibly horrible psychological situation.

i wanted to kill myself all day everyday before, and i couldn’t talk to anyone without overthinking and withdrawing from the conversation. i’m still a bit like that but im much better.

i hope to be normal by the end of the year, and somewhat successful in the next few years.

for me the drug abuse phase was a really important introspective journey. i have a very weird brain. autism, adhd and all sorts of personality traits that make it very hard for me to be happy. drugs have helped me realise that i can be different.

the difference in my thought patterns from before to now is insane.

the trajectory i see for myself is fix brain > build relationships > make money/do things that make me happy. pretty simple, pretty reasonable. it’s the only path i ever saw as viable, and i think it will work

I've spent a few thousand dollars I'd say total, huge waste of money and its hurt my health a lot. I'm up 20lbs compared to this time last year from all the booze. Maybe its time to hop on ozempic and anti craving drugs to avoid being such a chimp.

 

[glitch]

I've spent a few thousand dollars I'd say total, huge waste of money and its hurt my health a lot. I'm up 20lbs compared to this time last year from all the booze. Maybe its time to hop on ozempic and anti craving drugs to avoid being such a chimp.

with autism and adhd do u think it’s justifiable to take certain drugs

i try to convince myself it is but maybe im just looking for an easy way out of my problems

 

[Lain]

with autism and adhd do u think it’s justifiable to take certain drugs

i try to convince myself it is but maybe im just looking for an easy way out of my problems

Some drugs can objectively improve your life, if used reasonably. You're not being reasonable and neither am I, so we both cause more problems with any drug use.