Neet194012940
GUK 8-8008
- Jan 20, 2024
- 860
srs. She said she thought abortion would make you ugly as well but she was proven wrong. Normal complaining about stretch marks and she hasn't able to sleep since i was born because there was little gremlin crying at night. She would have advanced so much further in her career if i didn't exist and I was reason she was depressed for 10 years after I was born.
this makes a lot of sense because i've always felt the urge to jester to her, talk to her, want to do activities together. So i'd approach her and talk about some topic almost every day but she would never care and usually just keep scrolling her phone and saying mmph hmmmm until I went away, i would always feel this pit in my stomach afterwards.
It means that i was trying to get her to give me affection because i didn't get it as infant. i think this is also why i tried to socialize in middle/high school by jestermaxxing, modeling off relationship with her. Obviously the main reason why i didnt make any friends was because I was obese ethnic subhuman but it didn't help.
most of what I assumed was affection as a kid was just her using as a pawn against my dad in the normal way most kids expierence these days.
she still lives together with him in a sexless marriage. I don't have any sympathy for him because he also sucked.
both of them would do the minimum of what you're supposed to do as parent but there would always be something lacking that just wasn't there. For example they didn't let me play video games or watch TV as a kid. Which is fine if they provided any other sort of activity, like sport, playing with friends or talking to me. But the only thing i could do was literally lie down on the carpet and rot, watching the clock until it was bedtime. Then my cuck dad would mock me and beat me with a rod for having no friends.
he stopped when i was 14. Luckily he was fat and schlubby so i was able to hit back. He fought back for a few months and sent me to the hospital with a few broken. But i was able to pummel him into the fetal position, and after that he would groan, put his hands in front of his face, basically acting like victim and a battered woman. Such a cringe larp. He started beating me at 3 years old because he hated his wageslave job. He would never show it until he got home, would always be overly smiley and laugh in an obviously fake way with all his coworkers. like this meme:
he wasn't sorry at all, i just asserted dominance and mogged him. Now he just sits in the living room and watches marvel movies until 4 am every night with fluoride stare and zombie-like movement because of all the SSRI's a doctor with name ending in -stein gave him.
so cringe.
luckily they are both such low energy NPC's they are never gonna kick me out .
this makes a lot of sense because i've always felt the urge to jester to her, talk to her, want to do activities together. So i'd approach her and talk about some topic almost every day but she would never care and usually just keep scrolling her phone and saying mmph hmmmm until I went away, i would always feel this pit in my stomach afterwards.
It means that i was trying to get her to give me affection because i didn't get it as infant. i think this is also why i tried to socialize in middle/high school by jestermaxxing, modeling off relationship with her. Obviously the main reason why i didnt make any friends was because I was obese ethnic subhuman but it didn't help.
most of what I assumed was affection as a kid was just her using as a pawn against my dad in the normal way most kids expierence these days.
she still lives together with him in a sexless marriage. I don't have any sympathy for him because he also sucked.
both of them would do the minimum of what you're supposed to do as parent but there would always be something lacking that just wasn't there. For example they didn't let me play video games or watch TV as a kid. Which is fine if they provided any other sort of activity, like sport, playing with friends or talking to me. But the only thing i could do was literally lie down on the carpet and rot, watching the clock until it was bedtime. Then my cuck dad would mock me and beat me with a rod for having no friends.
he stopped when i was 14. Luckily he was fat and schlubby so i was able to hit back. He fought back for a few months and sent me to the hospital with a few broken. But i was able to pummel him into the fetal position, and after that he would groan, put his hands in front of his face, basically acting like victim and a battered woman. Such a cringe larp. He started beating me at 3 years old because he hated his wageslave job. He would never show it until he got home, would always be overly smiley and laugh in an obviously fake way with all his coworkers. like this meme:
he wasn't sorry at all, i just asserted dominance and mogged him. Now he just sits in the living room and watches marvel movies until 4 am every night with fluoride stare and zombie-like movement because of all the SSRI's a doctor with name ending in -stein gave him.
so cringe.
luckily they are both such low energy NPC's they are never gonna kick me out .
she also did some voodoo witch bullshit swearing to god (which she doesn't believe in btw) that my future kids are going to be disabled freaks and that my life will be miserable for what im doing to her.
