Just woke up slightly "depressed" because I realized how futile everything is

[Pale God]

I also had some weird nightmare which looked like Fist of the North Star's setting but I.was in control of the dream and saw it from 3rd person perspective and knew it wasn't real and was dreaming right now.

After that I just thought about how I am.probably still gonna be in a similar situation like right now in a couple year or for example a decade.

I also think qbout how corrupt the system is every single day and nothing will change for the better anyway because the masses are dumb.

Finally it's about I'll most likely never have some relationship again like the one when I was 14/15. I really wanna date a White girl with blue eyes, a cute, small slope nose and a pretty face but they are basically way too hard to get for someone in my situation. They would also not really be pure probably since they would have fucked dozens of other guys before already probably.

Biggest futility of it all is dying at some point and forgetting everything you did all your life anyway. So nothing really matters in the grand schemw of things.

 

[fries]

Soytards consume so much media that even their dreams become their own product lines

 

[Thadman]

I don't really let existentialism affect me anymore, being remembered is the least of my concerns rather doing the best for myself in the present.

 

[neetastrea]

Biggest futility of it all is dying at some point and forgetting everything you did all your life anyway. So nothing really matters in the grand schemw of things

yeah. it’s highly likely nothing you do will matter in the grand scheme of things. eventually there will be a day when your existence is entirely forgotten by the world. however, why not use that as an excuse to live (or die) by your own terms? if you wanted to, you could give up right now and kill yourself, but why would you? you have nothing to lose and everything to gain. start trying new things and doing what you enjoy free of judgement.

 

[Pale God]

I have given up on becoming famous too. I don't see any scenario where my life really changes for the better and becomes really enjoyable and it not involving work. If it involved work to become better it would actually become less enjoyable than it is right now in my opinion.

 

[Pale God]

Gonna watch that Habaine Renmei anime in a bit. I feel like watching something deep and philosophical.

 

[Pale God]

I could continue Frieren but is too long for my taste already. I might watch it at some point again though.

 

[Magonia]

I had a heart attack or some shit a few days ago.

 

[Deleted member 2206]

Nothing matters. We're organisms that only exist due to a self-fulfilling urge. Just do what you want with your life.

 

[Pale God]

I had a heart attack or some shit a few days ago.

Damn, hopefully that doesn't happen again.

 

[Pale God]

Nothing matters. We're organisms that only exist due to a self-fulfilling urge. Just do what you want with your life.

I lack the resources to do so. I would also need tons of luck to get the things I want and some strategy on how to get them. More so luck though.

 

[Magonia]

Damn, hopefully that doesn't happen again.

I took the jab I guess its over best i can do is see a doctor and not smoke again i guess

 

[Pale God]

I took the jab I guess its over best i can do is see a doctor and not smoke again i guess

Reason why I won't join the military besides maybe getting used as cannon fodder in the future or ending up traumatized. They still want you to get the vaccine in 2024 to be able to join. Lol

 

[Eeveestrations]

 

[AccurateDud]

I also had some weird nightmare which looked like Fist of the North Star's setting but I.was in control of the dream and saw it from 3rd person perspective and knew it wasn't real and was dreaming right now.

After that I just thought about how I am.probably still gonna be in a similar situation like right now in a couple year or for example a decade.

I also think qbout how corrupt the system is every single day and nothing will change for the better anyway because the masses are dumb.

Finally it's about I'll most likely never have some relationship again like the one when I was 14/15. I really wanna date a White girl with blue eyes, a cute, small slope nose and a pretty face but they are basically way too hard to get for someone in my situation. They would also not really be pure probably since they would have fucked dozens of other guys before already probably.

Biggest futility of it all is dying at some point and forgetting everything you did all your life anyway. So nothing really matters in the grand schemw of things.

Sounds terrible OP, life may seem bleak at times but remember to always strive for what you desire most. It sounds redundant but it serves as a reassurance.