glitch
total foid and nigger death
- Sep 9, 2023
- 5,931
i just wrote it in my notes might as well share. i have this confidence to express my feelings with precision when im on meds, so ill take advantage of it. if anybody is anti lookism please point out any holes in my thinking.
it’s clear the real problem lies in my lack of people validating me. i feel worthless. i am worthless. it’s more than a feeling. definitively, i am worthless. if nobody cares for me or seeks my approval, i am worthless. it’s a truth of human nature.
why am i worthless then? my appearance. it’s the only remaining valid explanation. if people thought i looked good they would be willing to overlook my anxiety and would see me as valuable despite it. since i look weird, my anxiety is perceived as a fatal flaw which confirms i am weird. my looks suggest it, my anxiety confirms it. that is an absolute fact for me. i do not know how i can be happy when these are my circumstances.
i receive genuinely no validation. it is a necessary thing to have confidence in relationship building. i am not worthy of validation and the proof is the huge amount of people who have disapproved of me.
i feel so desperate for a solution that i want to believe this isn’t the case, but it is. it is repeatedly proven to me that it is. it hurts so much to have a theory i fear so much proven to me, over and over again.
it’s clear the real problem lies in my lack of people validating me. i feel worthless. i am worthless. it’s more than a feeling. definitively, i am worthless. if nobody cares for me or seeks my approval, i am worthless. it’s a truth of human nature.
why am i worthless then? my appearance. it’s the only remaining valid explanation. if people thought i looked good they would be willing to overlook my anxiety and would see me as valuable despite it. since i look weird, my anxiety is perceived as a fatal flaw which confirms i am weird. my looks suggest it, my anxiety confirms it. that is an absolute fact for me. i do not know how i can be happy when these are my circumstances.
i receive genuinely no validation. it is a necessary thing to have confidence in relationship building. i am not worthy of validation and the proof is the huge amount of people who have disapproved of me.
i feel so desperate for a solution that i want to believe this isn’t the case, but it is. it is repeatedly proven to me that it is. it hurts so much to have a theory i fear so much proven to me, over and over again.
