Libido is back

Melancholoser

Melancholoser

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I'm doing the most serious nofap streak ever and after about two weeks of flatline, my libido comes striking like a fucking lightning. Today I had the most erotic dream ever, I dreamed that I fucked this chick from my college I'm into.

I never had an erotic dream like this, usually during nofap I had porn-like erotic dreams where I'm a observer, or my brain generated some hentai for me to watch. This time however it was like a realistic POV, I was undressing the chick, hugging her, feeling her butt and everything, like a real experience. After that dream today I went to college feeling like a real bvll, with this primal urge to go and kino on women and had to restrain my impulses. However, I ended up hugging and squeezing my love interest for the first time and it was a bit too much, I still don't now if she liked it or found it weird.

Shit neetbros, I don't really want to fap, especially to porn. Please pray for me to resist these temptations, I'm going through hard times.
 
Thadman

Thadman

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Sep 6, 2023
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careful.

I was never addicted but did a 120 day (roughly) nofap streak a few years ago.

Broke it even though I wasn't horny, I was just bored and then became addicted to p0rn, like I was never addicted before.
The thing about going on nofap streaks is that the moment you break it, you start to make up for all of those days you missed. You start jerking off at least 15 times a day if you didn't do it for say 3 months.
 
Melancholoser

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careful.

I was never addicted but did a 120 day (roughly) nofap streak a few years ago.

Broke it even though I wasn't horny, I was just bored and then became addicted to p0rn, like I was never addicted before.
I typically break nofap when I'm frustrated with something and instead of crying or getting angry I supress the emotions. This is a pattern I noticed.

I naturally have low libido and don't see women as sexual beings that much (at least compared to other males) despite being strongly attracted to them and they occupying a lot of my mental space.

But damn, rn I'm too horny and I actually want to just imagine me having sex and fap to it, I guess it may be better than fapping to porn.
 
Melancholoser

Melancholoser

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The thing about going on nofap streaks is that the moment you break it, you start to make up for all of those days you missed. You start jerking off at least 15 times a day if you didn't do it for say 3 months.
True asf for every addiction. Once an addict there's no going back, if you ever relapse you simply lose ALL the progress you had.
 
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UK_mental

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Nov 28, 2023
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The thing about going on nofap streaks is that the moment you break it, you start to make up for all of those days you missed. You start jerking off at least 15 times a day if you didn't do it for say 3 months.
yep. I was always like this. I never understood those who jerk off every day. I would always do it like one day per week but coom like 3 or 4 times on that one day.
 
Moondust

Moondust

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I naturally have low libido and don't see women as sexual beings that much (at least compared to other males) despite being strongly attracted to them and they occupying a lot of my mental space.
Sounds like homosexuality tbh lol. Gays worship female beauty in an asexual way. I do the same but i also have a ridiculous libido like a typical heterosexual (altho sublimated into worshipping women)
 
Based Vampire

Based Vampire

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I ended up hugging and squeezing my love interest for the first time and it was a bit too much, I still don't now if she liked it or found it weird.
You mean the one with a boring personality or her friend? You already mog me into oblivion with this, keep going
 
Melancholoser

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You mean the one with a boring personality or her friend? You already mog me into oblivion with this, keep going
They are three: the blonde highlights tall one (In this dream I was having sex with her, IRL she's been difficult to approach), the one that is into me (she's the one I hugged) and the one with the good personality (I don't sexualize her, she's a pure madonna goddess in my eyes).

Sounds like homosexuality tbh lol. Gays worship female beauty in an asexual way. I do the same but i also have a ridiculous libido like a typical heterosexual (altho sublimated into worshipping women)
I'm 100% sure I'm not gay. Ever since very young, male-on-male relationships felt disgusting to me and I even tried to become gay at some point to stop suffering bcs of women (as silly at it may sounds), but I became extremely DISGUSTED by the idea real quick. My attraction to females is very strong, I just don't have a healthy relationship with my body and sexuality in general.
 
Moondust

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They are three: the blonde highlights tall one (In this dream I was having sex with her, IRL she's been difficult to approach), the one that is into me (she's the one I hugged) and the one with the good personality (I don't sexualize her, she's a pure madonna goddess in my eyes).


I'm 100% sure I'm not gay. Ever since very young, male-on-male relationships felt disgusting to me and I even tried to become gay at some point to stop suffering bcs of women (as silly at it may sounds), but I became extremely DISGUSTED by the idea real quick. My attraction to females is very strong, I just don't have a healthy relationship with my body and sexuality in general.
Nigga ur attracted to women in the same way other women are. U have that asexual position of basically seeing them like a painting or work of art. Im not hating i have the same , i just have a very strong sex drive as well lol
 
Melancholoser

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Nigga ur attracted to women in the same way other women are. U have that asexual position of basically seeing them like a painting or work of art. Im not hating i have the same , i just have a very strong sex drive as well lol
That's only because I supress my dom male instincts bruh, In bed I would probably let it loose. I have to keep the inner animal in chains, otherwise I may become an even worse mindless degenerate.

Btws this is my update: Tomorrow I'm going to have a conversation with her and ask about her real feelings towards me. If she says she's been only playing with me or smth, I will feel relieved. But If she says that she's indeed attracted to me then I will purpose a challenge where we spend most of our time together just the two of us for ~1-2 weeks getting to know each other more in depth. If at the end of the challenge she still has the desire, then I will gf her.
 
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