milkistermoo
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- Dec 2, 2020
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My parents don't let me do anything. I've wanted to learn stuff over the months and years, and they don't let me. I wanted to take up wood carving and they didn't let me. I wanted to learn to cook and they didn't let me, but I did it anyway by pushing my mom somehow. I wanted to learn how to paint and they didn't let me get anything for it. I can't even go out biking half the time because they don't like where I'll be going or the time I'll be leaving at. I wanted to start gardening semi-properly and they didn't let me, so I just had to make do with the bare minimum.
My parents let me become isolated even in my childhood, they didn't care to notice and if they did they didn't care. In school I had a few chances to do some new things that I was afraid of but I was also excited for because it'd be me taking a step in the right direction and it was like I couldn't do anything without their shadow looming over me or I had to do it in secret which just made me stressed out and anxious.
I used to be fat, they didn't let me lose it. I started losing it and eating less and they would not stop shutting up about how I was getting weak, and they would constantly push me to eat stuff. It made me EXTREMELY stressed out when I found out I'd be going somewhere and refusing to eat something would mean everyone would see the drama. With the weight loss thing, it was almost all my relatives who'd do this stuff tbh. I gained it all back and then lost it in a much healthier way but my body composition is still messed up. My mom told me she would feed me and made me fat because she found it "cute"
I hate living here, I hate having to shut everything in my room, I hate hearing their voices outside, I hate them calling me, I just wish I could move out. The reason I sometimes enter phases of being a night owl is probably because at night is the only time I feel a bit alone.
Does anyone feel this way? What have your experiences been like? I'd love to read them. (Sorry about the rambling, don't have enough mental energy to edit my train of thought)
My parents let me become isolated even in my childhood, they didn't care to notice and if they did they didn't care. In school I had a few chances to do some new things that I was afraid of but I was also excited for because it'd be me taking a step in the right direction and it was like I couldn't do anything without their shadow looming over me or I had to do it in secret which just made me stressed out and anxious.
I used to be fat, they didn't let me lose it. I started losing it and eating less and they would not stop shutting up about how I was getting weak, and they would constantly push me to eat stuff. It made me EXTREMELY stressed out when I found out I'd be going somewhere and refusing to eat something would mean everyone would see the drama. With the weight loss thing, it was almost all my relatives who'd do this stuff tbh. I gained it all back and then lost it in a much healthier way but my body composition is still messed up. My mom told me she would feed me and made me fat because she found it "cute"
I hate living here, I hate having to shut everything in my room, I hate hearing their voices outside, I hate them calling me, I just wish I could move out. The reason I sometimes enter phases of being a night owl is probably because at night is the only time I feel a bit alone.
Does anyone feel this way? What have your experiences been like? I'd love to read them. (Sorry about the rambling, don't have enough mental energy to edit my train of thought)