Venting Mother

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Kaz

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Nov 29, 2020
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My mom always called me a weirdo from the age of 4. Her sisters did this too and their children adopted this behavior and outcasted me from the beginning. When I was 8, my mother started teaching me how to not embarrass her. I needed to keep my mouth shut and stay out of sight until guests leave.
When I was 13 she let my stepfather verbally abuse me, for example calling me faggot because I didn't want to go swimming with my stepbrother. He claimed it was because I was afraid that I'll get an erection with him. My stepbrother was 7 at the time and I am not gay. Sometimes my stepdad would lightly slap me if said something back.
When I was 15, my mom tried to hit me. I grabbed her arm and she told my stepdad. He came and trashed my video games. I had zero escapism so I was forced to stay in my room staring at the ceiling with my thoughts. I couldn't even go outside because the whole town of the same age group laughed at me. After all, I never had money and walked around in my older brother's old clothes.
When I was 17-18 I escaped and took neetbux.
At the age of 26, my mother called and apologized to me. I lied and forgave her. I don't have any loving memories of my mother. She called again a year ago that my stepsister wants to meet me, she's 18 now. I told my mom that because of the corona, I try to avoid contact. In reality, I fucking hate females with every fiber in my body. No matter who it is, once you get to know me, they are nice to you when they need something and then dumb you. Women are such disgusting beings that I have never in my life even seen a video about a redeemable woman. When I once visited a single mom, her children came to the kitchen and she started to order them around while biting her teeth together. Many don't believe when guys denied sex, but all I wanted to do is turn the stove on to fry her abusive face on it.
No matter if it's your mom, aunt, cousin, coworker, or boss. When it's a female they'll use and abuse you, sooner or later. My mother never knew me, nor did she ever wanted to.
 
Atila

Atila

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Dec 2, 2020
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understandable i hate my parents my mother only made me because she was a orphan and wanted to give that life love JFL parents create a need/problem and then try to fix/satisfy it and act like they accomplished something by not even giving me the basic necissity and they are bluepilled so far detached from reality its sad i hope they die horribly and suffer along the way
 
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Kaz

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Nov 29, 2020
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understandable i hate my parents my mother only made me because she was a orphan and wanted to give that life love JFL parents create a need/problem and then try to fix/satisfy it and act like they accomplished something by not even giving me the basic necissity and they are bluepilled so far detached from reality its sad i hope they die horribly and suffer along the way
I haven't seen my mother in forever. The most hurtful thing for them probably is being forgotten. Cheers mate for reading my ramble.
 
jaded jabble

jaded jabble

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Nov 30, 2020
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My mom always called me a weirdo from the age of 4. Her sisters did this too and their children adopted this behavior and outcasted me from the beginning. When I was 8, my mother started teaching me how to not embarrass her. I needed to keep my mouth shut and stay out of sight until guests leave.
When I was 13 she let my stepfather verbally abuse me, for example calling me faggot because I didn't want to go swimming with my stepbrother. He claimed it was because I was afraid that I'll get an erection with him. My stepbrother was 7 at the time and I am not gay. Sometimes my stepdad would lightly slap me if said something back.
When I was 15, my mom tried to hit me. I grabbed her arm and she told my stepdad. He came and trashed my video games. I had zero escapism so I was forced to stay in my room staring at the ceiling with my thoughts. I couldn't even go outside because the whole town of the same age group laughed at me. After all, I never had money and walked around in my older brother's old clothes.
When I was 17-18 I escaped and took neetbux.
At the age of 26, my mother called and apologized to me. I lied and forgave her. I don't have any loving memories of my mother. She called again a year ago that my stepsister wants to meet me, she's 18 now. I told my mom that because of the corona, I try to avoid contact. In reality, I fucking hate females with every fiber in my body. No matter who it is, once you get to know me, they are nice to you when they need something and then dumb you. Women are such disgusting beings that I have never in my life even seen a video about a redeemable woman. When I once visited a single mom, her children came to the kitchen and she started to order them around while biting her teeth together. Many don't believe when guys denied sex, but all I wanted to do is turn the stove on to fry her abusive face on it.
No matter if it's your mom, aunt, cousin, coworker, or boss. When it's a female they'll use and abuse you, sooner or later. My mother never knew me, nor did she ever wanted to.
Weirdo=ugly
Weird chad=mysterious and unique
 
Zargrim

Zargrim

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Dec 3, 2020
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I didn't experience anything that traumatic as a kid, but I did have some problems with the way my parents raised me and behaved when I was a kid. After moving back in with them after college and staying for the past 10 years, I have learned to forgive pretty much everything. Things were kind of contentious at first, but I have a great relationship with them now. My father has dementia though now, and it is like taking care of a child.
 
artificialanecdote

artificialanecdote

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Dec 13, 2020
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I haven't seen my mother in forever. The most hurtful thing for them probably is being forgotten. Cheers mate for reading my ramble.
I'd communicate more to my mother by dropping her for a few years than engaging in the narcissistic passive aggressive unreceptive communications week after week. It would hurt plenty and would be deserved. It's so troubling to hold out hope that one day she'll start to gain in self-reflection, trust or care. What trauma has to be endured to ignite that important quest of self-discovery for an elder woman? Almost 60 years old, I expected she was to become the wise crone? She's horrible as ever and it's just easier and easier to see now. Quite the black pill to discover your mother doesn't actually care about your feelings and inner-life and perhaps never did... A clearing gateway to keep moving forward. One must become an individual in their life to really gain autonomy. It's just so sad the state of the American family– and the unloved, valueless man.
 
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Kaz

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Nov 29, 2020
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I'd communicate more to my mother by dropping her for a few years than engaging in the narcissistic passive aggressive unreceptive communications week after week. It would hurt plenty and would be deserved. It's so troubling to hold out hope that one day she'll start to gain in self-reflection, trust or care. What trauma has to be endured to ignite that important quest of self-discovery for an elder woman? Almost 60 years old, I expected she was to become the wise crone? She's horrible as ever and it's just easier and easier to see now. Quite the black pill to discover your mother doesn't actually care about your feelings and inner-life and perhaps never did... A clearing gateway to keep moving forward. One must become an individual in their life to really gain autonomy. It's just so sad the state of the American family– and the unloved, valueless man.
The site is dying and yet I found a new user who bothers to read. Cheers, it means a lot. You speak the truth well and clear.
 
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