Oneitis is what holds me back from becoming a functional part of society.

[xinino]

SSRIs and psychedelics won't make me forget my oneitis; they induce temporary emotional numbness and detachment from anything enjoyable. When I was emotionally numb due to LSA, I believed that nothing mattered except work and studying. Basically, I became a robot. I even established a strict schedule for my daily activities. I stopped enjoying anything that once made me happy. I was indifferent to my oneitis, music, even porn. I only masturbated because my dick kept itching. I didn’t masturbate to feel good, but to relieve myself so I could study properly.

I am starting to regain emotions, but they aren’t strong, and thus, my feelings towards my oneitis are re-emerging. oneitis feels way good to let go @Manletmachine

 

[xinino]

@RabidRosaries is there drug that permanently turn off emotions?

 

[xinino]

I want to feel her as strong as I used to @AsgardTheFatcel but I am afraid I will destroy my brain with LSA

 

[MelaninQueen]

Do you realize we'll be having this conversation infinitely, although with slight differences?

 

[xinino]

Do you realize we'll be having this conversation infinitely, although with slight differences?

I am obsessed

 

[Manletmachine]

Obsession into overdrive