Truefaithneworder
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- Dec 21, 2022
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awhile ago @NekoRightsActivist said this to me and i've been thinking about it alot ever since.These are the only type of relationships that i've ever really had for a very long time now . Till the moment @NekoRightsActivist told me this I've never really came to this conclusion on my own probably because i'm really fucking dumb honestly or just didn't want to accept how much time i've wasted on these pathetic shallow excuses of a relationship.Anyways it just made me come to terms with this online friendship i've had with this girl that left me really mentally sore for a long time now.
well let me just get straight to the point , in 2014 , i downloaded some shitty mobile game called toram online . It was a mobile mmo ,that mostly kids or people who didn't have any alternative due to being poor played. I believe i was only 14 back than and had found some solace in this highly social game where i could act like someone i wasn't in real life.I played it for a while ,even getting into it since it wasn't a paywalled game like most mobile games nowadays. Just did typical mmo stuff where I partied up with people and did quests and shit ,whatever. One day i don't remember how but i met this girl who called herself "Crys" , i really clicked with her and kept playing with her exclusively every day . She said she was 10 years old ,which i thought she was larping at first but eventually came to believe it due to her consistent way of texting.I got along with her really well and she would be a constant part of my life, for the next 3 years . We talked on messaging apps like kik which was popular back than and also in game . Though i never once talked to her on voice chat ,since even back than i was afraid it might ruin our friendship had she found out how non NT i was in real life and not the extroverted person i portrayed myself to be online .Anyways , one day she just gave me her instagram and i kid you not ,I almost vomited on the inside looking at her .She was so fuckin ugly bro , like unimaginably ugly.The budding feelings i had for her kind of melted away at the point and i started kinda ghosting her even though she dmed me alot on instagram( which was just a profile of ER btw). At that point i thought i had better options since i was still in highschool and all the girls surrounding me looked atleast 20x better than her .Why would i go for this ugly asian girl ,when i had these 10/10 latina stacies with big asses all around me? was my train of thought. Well i was still too delusional to realize that i was actually a fucking loser and no girl wanted me. Time passed and i dropped out and was too focused on my own troubles to ever give this "friend" i made a second thought .Another 4 years passed and one day i decided to check my instagram and found she messaged me for a long time afterwards ,atleast once a month . I looked at her instagram profile again and she just recently graduated highschool. She looked a little better but most of it was just her knowing how to use makeup and going through puberty since the last time i saw her was when she was 14.I honestly started feeling regret at how i destroyed something possibly special just for being shallow when I , myself wasn't able to get a girlfriend throughout the years.i still found her ugly however. THE CRAZIEST FUCKING THING HOWEVER WAS THE FACT THAT SHE HAD A BOYFRIEND and guess what he was a tall chubby WHITE guy with curly hair. He wasn't chad but he was still better looking than me and of course he's white, these asian bitches are so stereotypical. I still looked at her instagram sometimes and now she's off in italy on a trip with alot of her friends ,she lived a happy highschool life while i was just rotting for years on end.PERHAPS i had the chance to be JBF( just be first) , but i pretty much wasted it and for that i felt regret whenever i looked at her instagram .
Well anyways i was able to cope with the hurt because i came to realize that the relationship i had with her was shallow from the beginning as " online relationships aren't real relationships" as said by @NekoRightsActivist and he's right .
this is her now , I was trying to find the photo with her white bf but it seems she took it down
i still think she's pretty ugly however
well let me just get straight to the point , in 2014 , i downloaded some shitty mobile game called toram online . It was a mobile mmo ,that mostly kids or people who didn't have any alternative due to being poor played. I believe i was only 14 back than and had found some solace in this highly social game where i could act like someone i wasn't in real life.I played it for a while ,even getting into it since it wasn't a paywalled game like most mobile games nowadays. Just did typical mmo stuff where I partied up with people and did quests and shit ,whatever. One day i don't remember how but i met this girl who called herself "Crys" , i really clicked with her and kept playing with her exclusively every day . She said she was 10 years old ,which i thought she was larping at first but eventually came to believe it due to her consistent way of texting.I got along with her really well and she would be a constant part of my life, for the next 3 years . We talked on messaging apps like kik which was popular back than and also in game . Though i never once talked to her on voice chat ,since even back than i was afraid it might ruin our friendship had she found out how non NT i was in real life and not the extroverted person i portrayed myself to be online .Anyways , one day she just gave me her instagram and i kid you not ,I almost vomited on the inside looking at her .She was so fuckin ugly bro , like unimaginably ugly.The budding feelings i had for her kind of melted away at the point and i started kinda ghosting her even though she dmed me alot on instagram( which was just a profile of ER btw). At that point i thought i had better options since i was still in highschool and all the girls surrounding me looked atleast 20x better than her .Why would i go for this ugly asian girl ,when i had these 10/10 latina stacies with big asses all around me? was my train of thought. Well i was still too delusional to realize that i was actually a fucking loser and no girl wanted me. Time passed and i dropped out and was too focused on my own troubles to ever give this "friend" i made a second thought .Another 4 years passed and one day i decided to check my instagram and found she messaged me for a long time afterwards ,atleast once a month . I looked at her instagram profile again and she just recently graduated highschool. She looked a little better but most of it was just her knowing how to use makeup and going through puberty since the last time i saw her was when she was 14.I honestly started feeling regret at how i destroyed something possibly special just for being shallow when I , myself wasn't able to get a girlfriend throughout the years.i still found her ugly however. THE CRAZIEST FUCKING THING HOWEVER WAS THE FACT THAT SHE HAD A BOYFRIEND and guess what he was a tall chubby WHITE guy with curly hair. He wasn't chad but he was still better looking than me and of course he's white, these asian bitches are so stereotypical. I still looked at her instagram sometimes and now she's off in italy on a trip with alot of her friends ,she lived a happy highschool life while i was just rotting for years on end.PERHAPS i had the chance to be JBF( just be first) , but i pretty much wasted it and for that i felt regret whenever i looked at her instagram .
Well anyways i was able to cope with the hurt because i came to realize that the relationship i had with her was shallow from the beginning as " online relationships aren't real relationships" as said by @NekoRightsActivist and he's right .
this is her now , I was trying to find the photo with her white bf but it seems she took it down
i still think she's pretty ugly however
