Story Psuedolonewolf- From talented young game developer to depressed lonely neet

[Riddler]

Released the Flash game MARDEK RPG in 2007 at the age of 17, . For a Flash game from that era, MARDEK was impressive. He drew, animated, composed, wrote and programmed everything himself, and appeared to possess talent in all of these domains. He programmed his own forum from scratch which went through various iterations and had some unique features.


He secretly created other forums with the intention of attracting the type of woman who would accept him after a Deviantart girl broke his heart, but this proved unsuccessful. For a while he only responded online to posts made by women, citing a "phobia" of men.

In the more-than-a-decade since, he made promising looking progress on other projects, but never managed to finish anything impressive. Recent posts on his blog (all forums were taken offline years ago) portray a Tobias that is as isolated, tortured and neurotic as ever

Alora Fane

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Alora Fane

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Alora Fane

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People talk about how it's never too late and share fluffy stories about how their 100 year old grandma went and got her PhD and met the love of her life in the process or whatever, but so much of that feels to me like placating adages parrotted by the guilt-shy or delusional. "Money doesn't buy happiness!" from the millionaire to the vagrant, "you don't need a relationship to be happy, I was honestly happier when I was single!" from the girl who's never been without a partner for longer than a month to the 30-year-old guy who's never so much as held a girl's hand...

I've lurked around online communities for social anxiety and the like for years now, and the posts by women are so often something like "I'm so awkward, I can't talk to people, I freeze up, I have nothing to say, I can't even leave my bedroom, I'm so lonely and have no friends and I hate it, if it wasn't for my boyfriend I-".

You might say I should talk more with other men. Even if I could easily shrug off the trauma, I just imagine that leading to either frustration at any venting I did being met with unwelcome advice, or maybe it'd just lead to a 'crabs in a bucket' scenario - like with the incel communities - where mutual bemoaning of our loserliness just trapped both of us in a vortex with little chance of escape.

The blogs remind me of an older version of @Pikabro or @Zangano1

Remember he's in his 30s going to college after years of being neet

 

[Deleted member 1903]

He should’ve browsed Lookism instead of rotting on weird forums.

 

[Riddler]

He should’ve browsed Lookism instead of rotting on weird forums.

He has a phobia of even E interactions with other men

He made his own forums to siphon female fans

 

[poorcel]

He should’ve browsed Lookism instead of rotting on weird forums.

He doesn't want to because he said it will only lead to frustration and unwanted advice

 

[Deleted member 1903]

He has a phobia of even E interactions with other men

He made his own forums to siphon female fans

Yikes

He doesn't want to because he said it will only lead to frustration and unwanted advice

So he doesn’t want to face reality. Basically a completely non NT sub-5 disgrace who refuses to improve or take the blackpill n ldar

 

[Riddler]

Yikes

So he doesn’t want to face reality. Basically a completely non NT sub-5 disgrace who refuses to improve

You gotta remember he's 34. Older than 99% of these forums and has been internet dwelling since pre social media

 

[Deleted member 1903]

You gotta remember he's 34. Older than 99% of these forums and has been internet dwelling since pre social media

Yh idk tbh I’ll probably end up worse

 

[Deleted member 1903]

Tbh I’m waffling. I wish I had the discipline to work on my autism projects

 

[Riddler]

Tbh I’m waffling. I wish I had the discipline to work on my autism projects

It's impressive what he pulled off earlier on but his motivation waned

 

[Deleted member 1903]

It's impressive what he pulled off earlier on but his motivation waned

Tbh he should've just focused on making it big at RPGmaxxing. Instead of being depressed because he couldn't live a mediocre life.

 

[クーロ]

He's the real NEETgod

Also I think this is how most of us will end up. A lot of users are genuinely talented and have something going for them but completely ruined that prospect through isolation killing their motivation. This dude being so unmotivated in his 30s is tragic, he could've been something great if he was already so skilled by 17. A girl seriously needs to come save him

 

[Deleted member 1903]

He's the real NEETgod

Also I think this is how most of us will end up. A lot of users are genuinely talented and have something going for them but completely ruined that prospect through isolation killing their motivation. This dude being so unmotivated in his 30s is tragic, he could've been something great if he was already so skilled by 17. A girl seriously needs to come save him

Tbh he probably just wanted a 3/10 chubby nerd gf to support him... Brutal

But calling yourself wasted potential is a narcy trait.

 

[WestEuropoor]

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Released the Flash game MARDEK RPG in 2007 at the age of 17, . For a Flash game from that era, MARDEK was impressive. He drew, animated, composed, wrote and programmed everything himself, and appeared to possess talent in all of these domains. He programmed his own forum from scratch which went through various iterations and had some unique features.


He secretly created other forums with the intention of attracting the type of woman who would accept him after a Deviantart girl broke his heart, but this proved unsuccessful. For a while he only responded online to posts made by women, citing a "phobia" of men.

In the more-than-a-decade since, he made promising looking progress on other projects, but never managed to finish anything impressive. Recent posts on his blog (all forums were taken offline years ago) portray a Tobias that is as isolated, tortured and neurotic as ever

Alora Fane

alorafane.com

Alora Fane

alorafane.com

Alora Fane

alorafane.com

The blogs remind me of an older version of @Pikabro or @Zangano1

Remember he's in his 30s going to college after years of being neet

Brutal

 

[Riddler]

Tbh he probably just wanted a 3/10 chubby nerd gf to support him... Brutal

But calling yourself wasted potential is a narcy trait.

Kinda but anyone on any circumstance can call themselves wasted potential

Potential is an infinite void and if you waste your life away like this guy eventually you're on the track to ending up like this guy

This is why totally giving up is dumb. You 100% will come to regret it and consider potential one day. Plagued by what if and wasted youth- youth being the one thing even thr biggest "subhuman" has

 

[Deleted member 1903]

Kinda but anyone on any circumstance can call themselves wasted potential

Potential is an infinite void and if you waste your life away like this guy eventually you're on the track to ending up like this guy

This is why totally giving up is dumb. You 100% will come to regret it and consider potential one day. Plagued by what if and wasted youth- youth being the one thing even thr biggest "subhuman" has

Yes but most of us were just the quiet autistic unkempt/smelly kid. I guess we could've went through a training arc or sum but idk we'd still be behind normal people

 

[Punished Neet]

quiet autistic unkempt/smelly kid.

Guess the reason why we're neets is because we didn't take enough showers and respect women

 

[Deleted member 1903]

Guess the reason why we're neets is because we didn't take enough showers and respect women

People who're looksminned + ugly and autistic like me yes.

 

[Riddler]

Yes but most of us were just the quiet autistic unkempt/smelly kid. I guess we could've went through a training arc or sum but idk we'd still be behind normal people

It's alright to be the quiet aspie kid but the time you're in your 30s you're expected to have your shit together

The guy in OP as he says is still the quiet unkempt aspie kid in his mid 30s

 

[Deleted member 1903]

It's alright to be the quiet aspie kid but the time you're in your 30s you're expected to have your shit together

The guy in OP as he says is still the quiet unkempt aspie kid in his mid 30s

Your high school experience determines your life trajectory

 

[Riddler]

Your high school experience determines your life trajectory

It's only losers who think this lol. Theres Successful people who had a shit time there and did a 180

 

[MelaninQueen]

You are very talented.

 

[MelaninQueen]

Tbh I’m waffling. I wish I had the discipline to work on my autism projects

Just have high IQ.

 

[Riddler]

You are very talented.

Who me

Or a plural you

 

[MelaninQueen]

Who me

Or a plural you

You're a talented man.