something is srsly wrong with me

[Deleted member 2825]

Idk what it is. I've been going to sleep around 10am and waking up anywhere from 5:00-8:00 so most of my waking hours are when it's dark out. Not that it really matters since my room doesn't have any windows. But maybe that's why reality doesn't feel real? I haven't interacted with a soul in days. It feels like I'm in the matrix, it feels like the outside world has never and doesn't exist. My friends and family, anyone I have ever known don't and hasn't ever existed. All the things I supposedly done as a kid, nope, didn't happen. I've felt like this for a long time. I'm thinking about taking drastic action sometime. Maybe a few days away or years away but I have it in sight for now. Suicide is for only if this drastic action doesn't cure this confusion inside me.

 

[RNT]

Not that it really matters since my room doesn't have any windows.

Basement would be an upgrade.

When I'm awake at night (which is often), I turn on outside lightning to have more "space" when looking out the window. Otherwise it's getting oppressive.

Another trick is to have a large mirror on the wall, and yet another one is a large cityscape portrait like you see in the movies (Resident Evil's underground research station or Fallout's Vault-Tec shelters).

 

[Deleted member 2825]

Basement would be an upgrade.

When I'm awake at night (which is often), I turn on outside lightning to have more "space" when looking out the window. Otherwise it's getting oppressive.

Another trick is to have a large mirror on the wall, and yet another one is a large cityscape portrait like you see in the movies (Resident Evil's underground research station or Fallout's Vault-Tec shelters).

I have the basement to myself. I just took over the storage room to lock myself into so I don't have to be paranoid about shit