Venting Somewhere along the way I stopped being the best at things I always used to excel at

Abhorrence

Abhorrence

NEET
Dec 24, 2023
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What used to be my "best" grew smaller and smaller. I started thinking it was all pointless, I made no sense. Working my hardest at school seemed stupid. And whats the big deal about being a fast runner? Making everyone laugh seemed way cooler to me, and I was way better at it. And I quickly learned that if I kept that up, I'd always have to do something even bigger the next time around
"Can't have people think that I'm boring."

I figured I could do anything. I made everybody think I would do anything. So the stuff I did ended up being progressively dumber. I was out of control, I wasn't thinking. I knew they were a bunch of idiots. I wanted them to believe that they couldn't have this much fun without me. And we'd break up the boring times doing pointless crap for fun, with or without regrets.

So I decided I'd set my sights higher. But the next thing I knew, after taking a good look around... I found there was no one left but me. It was right then and there when I finally realized, despite all my efforts to be the center of attention... there was nothing special about me at all.
 
The Doctor

The Doctor

TALL SKVLL NATIONALISM
Aug 27, 2023
5,037
i stopped reading a single pixel of anything after I realised Von Neumann and Ramanujan existed
 
The Doctor

The Doctor

TALL SKVLL NATIONALISM
Aug 27, 2023
5,037
I wanted them to believe that they couldn't have this much fun without me. And we'd break up the boring times doing pointless crap for fun, with or without regrets.

So I decided I'd set my sights higher. But the next thing I knew, after taking a good look around... I found there was no one left but me. It was right then and there when I finally realized, despite all my efforts to be the center of attention... there was nothing special about me at all.
Lol similar thing but I found its something we automatically have, normie gossip are gay but to us an outsider it seems really thought-out and well crafted (muh social skills) but when u get insider perspective you realise its none of that they simply had a different evolutionary path. Most people dont want to come out of their delusions, a free ,"light" perspective is open only to incels have trodden the underworld or high iq autists.

well what I want to say is I think normies value social cliques way more than we do , since we automatically believe people are just placeholders for information exchange , but normies bond like women - they reinforce the others delusions and lack a true noble knighthood (which is why male gossip is simply less on the nose than woman, but peel the onions and youll find the same in group- out group, dualistic thinking type communication). Unironically most Africans and tribesman in the Savannah dont even think of the others as "friends" , more like an extra accessory organ like a limb which is painful when its lost but also needs to be "controlled" like a man cauterising his fingers so he doesnt get tetanus or smthn
 
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