
Abhorrence
NEET
- Dec 24, 2023
- 3,762
What used to be my "best" grew smaller and smaller. I started thinking it was all pointless, I made no sense. Working my hardest at school seemed stupid. And whats the big deal about being a fast runner? Making everyone laugh seemed way cooler to me, and I was way better at it. And I quickly learned that if I kept that up, I'd always have to do something even bigger the next time around
"Can't have people think that I'm boring."
I figured I could do anything. I made everybody think I would do anything. So the stuff I did ended up being progressively dumber. I was out of control, I wasn't thinking. I knew they were a bunch of idiots. I wanted them to believe that they couldn't have this much fun without me. And we'd break up the boring times doing pointless crap for fun, with or without regrets.
So I decided I'd set my sights higher. But the next thing I knew, after taking a good look around... I found there was no one left but me. It was right then and there when I finally realized, despite all my efforts to be the center of attention... there was nothing special about me at all.
"Can't have people think that I'm boring."
I figured I could do anything. I made everybody think I would do anything. So the stuff I did ended up being progressively dumber. I was out of control, I wasn't thinking. I knew they were a bunch of idiots. I wanted them to believe that they couldn't have this much fun without me. And we'd break up the boring times doing pointless crap for fun, with or without regrets.
So I decided I'd set my sights higher. But the next thing I knew, after taking a good look around... I found there was no one left but me. It was right then and there when I finally realized, despite all my efforts to be the center of attention... there was nothing special about me at all.