NSFW The blackpill has completely obliterated me

[4everDark]

02/01/2025

When I got blackpilled it feels like a part of me died that night. I have no energy or motivation to do anything and all I think about is the blackpill and other incels. It feels like I’ve been chained in a small room and forgotten, basically I’m alive, but my body is dead. I’m completely alone in life and don’t have any friends or family around me and I don’t need any. It’s my 4th year now of living with the blackpill and it looks like my life will remain this way 4ever. It makes me sad knowing most blackpillers including me will die kiss less forgotten virgins. Normies and women think the blackpill is a joke and make fun of us for being incels. Most of them don’t understand our lives are complete hell and how we struggle just to get through the day. Everyday we hope we’re going to meet some cute foid who will come into our life and give us what we’re looking for. You got to realize if you’re under 6ft, not a htn, chad or chad light its completely over for you. Nowadays women have this super inflated standard, any men under 6ft, ltn, mtn no matter his skills or education is considered ugly. Women don’t want to be approached or have anything to do with you, even your own family and parents could hate you.

My depression, OCD and bipolar 1 have gotten worse. I wash my hands so much that my skin cracks and I need to superglue those cuts because my hands won’t heal if I don’t. Everyday I wake up and immediately the blackpill and all this shit comes to mind. That’s why I spend the entire day in my room listening to loud music with my earbuds on and doing whatever to forget it. I fall asleep by watching porn completely on mute because that’s relaxing and it helps me get those sex dreams. The only time I’m not suffering is when I’m asleep, I’ve never dreamed about the blackpill or been called an incel in a dream. I stopped wearing my retainer because women don’t care if you have nice teeth when your face is ugly. When I wake up I usually find the phone right next to me stuck on what I’ve been watching.

4everDark​

Below are some photos of my hands and current living situation to show how bad things are (ignore the holes that's a whole different story).

 

[4everDark]

 

[4everDark]

 

[4everDark]

 

[The Doctor]

you have a good house, a computer and are white be happy

 

[burn]

Houses me

 

[lunin5]

Damn you watch porn on mute? Bro I sometimes blast it on speaker and proudly fap

If I could take your position I would. I hate humanity, I don’t want to be around most people at all and would rather enjoy my time doing what I love the most (going for walks, listen to music, sleep, watch yt videos, just enjoying my life you know)

 

[incelkingkong]

nigga gave us a crib demo

 

[4everDark]

Houses me imagine what your place is like.

nigga gave us a crib demo

here u go

 

[Unemployed]

02/01/2025

When I got blackpilled it feels like a part of me died that night. I have no energy or motivation to do anything and all I think about is the blackpill and other incels. It feels like I’ve been chained in a small room and forgotten, basically I’m alive, but my body is dead. I’m completely alone in life and don’t have any friends or family around me and I don’t need any. It’s my 4th year now of living with the blackpill and it looks like my life will remain this way 4ever. It makes me sad knowing most blackpillers including me will die kiss less forgotten virgins. Normies and women think the blackpill is a joke and make fun of us for being incels. Most of them don’t understand our lives are complete hell and how we struggle just to get through the day. Everyday we hope we’re going to meet some cute foid who will come into our life and give us what we’re looking for. You got to realize if you’re under 6ft, not a htn, chad or chad light its completely over for you. Nowadays women have this super inflated standard, any men under 6ft, ltn, mtn no matter his skills or education is considered ugly. Women don’t want to be approached or have anything to do with you, even your own family and parents could hate you.

My depression, OCD and bipolar 1 have gotten worse. I wash my hands so much that my skin cracks and I need to superglue those cuts because my hands won’t heal if I don’t. Everyday I wake up and immediately the blackpill and all this shit comes to mind. That’s why I spend the entire day in my room listening to loud music with my earbuds on and doing whatever to forget it. I fall asleep by watching porn completely on mute because that’s relaxing and it helps me get those sex dreams. The only time I’m not suffering is when I’m asleep, I’ve never dreamed about the blackpill or been called an incel in a dream. I stopped wearing my retainer because women don’t care if you have nice teeth when your face is ugly. When I wake up I usually find the phone right next to me stuck on what I’ve been watching.

I'm sorry to hear that. You're another young male who has been consumed by the harmful beliefs and pseudo-science that virgins in their late teens tout. And once you're in it, once you have accepted the blackpill as your new reality, there seems to be no way out. But the thing is, a blackpilled person lives in theory and ignores practice... the real world. All it takes to debunk most of the beliefs of incels is to step outside and observe heterosexual couples in real life. You’d see women holding hands and being intimate with men you would deem "too ugly" to ever get validation from females. A complete contradiction to your worldview.

Of course, as a blackpiller, you can’t accept the reality that contradicts your perception of the world. So, instead of reconsidering your beliefs, you rationalize these "statistical oddities" with more blackpilled theories. If a woman is with a man you consider unattractive, you’ll say it's because of money and status. If the guy has neither, you’ll say it’s because he was her first ever boyfriend: the just be first theory. When a man who isn’t a Chad finds love, blackpillers cope by inventing endless excuses to explain why it "doesn’t count." This is exactly what Newtonian physicists did for centuries before Einstein came along and exposed their entire model as flawed.

The reality is that these so-called "exceptions", as Eintein observed, aren’t exceptions at all. There is nothing unusual about average or even ugly guys getting girlfriends or wives. It only seems like a rare occurrence to you because you’ve been brainwashed into believing that women only date male models or "gigachads." But outside of your echo chamber, these relationships are just... normal.

Now, let’s talk about your situation. It’s common for someone who gets blackpilled to spiral into self-destruction. And that’s exactly what’s happening to you. You’ve given up on life. You’ve stopped taking care of yourself. Your mental health is in free fall. You surround yourself with filth, as evident in your pictures. Every day, you make yourself more repulsive, both physically and mentally. Every day, there’s less and less reason for any woman to be in your presence. Hell, even men don’t want to be around you. And if you can’t even befriend other men in real life, how the hell do you think you’ll ever befriend a woman?

This cycle doesn’t break itself. No one is coming to save you. If you stay on this path, the future you fear, dying a kissless, forgotten virgin, isn't just possible. I’s guaranteed. The blackpill didn’t kill your future. You did. And only you can change that.