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My heart goes out to you
- May 12, 2023
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It was on the 13th of september of 2022. She was pretty much the only girl that has ever been into me 100% confirmed. Since I liked another girl who was better good looking and very smart I was kinda ignoring this girl.
On 12th of september, the day when all colleges start their classes, this girl (who had picked a different college than me) waited for me at the train station of where I live after I finished my day and acted as if us meeting was a coincidence. She also told me how she was thinking of changing to my college and asked me to go with her to see my college on the next week, to which I agreed.
The 13th of september she waited for me at the train station (this time for going to our colleges) and we sat next to each other during almost an hour until I arrived to my college. It was very fucking uncomfortable because we didnt say anything almost the whole ride because I was very shy.
A few days within the week (in the day of her birthday casually) , I decided to tell her through whatsapp to cancel that going to my college shit because I was very shy since I knew it kinda was like a date and she wasnt the girl I liked in the first place. She told me no problem and after that we didnt talk anymore. I didnt even say happy birthday lol.
After this incident I thought I would have more chances to get a girlfriend and a social life in college if I wanted to I wouldnt have much trouble, but after that day I havent had the chance to speak to anyone other than my mother for more than 60 seconds.
I kinda mentioned this in the *****.life forum once, and today I dreamed about this I dont know why. Since Im a shut in I've lost a lot of my libido and my need to socialize, but sometimes I have these weird dreams that make me change my mind until I wake up.
On 12th of september, the day when all colleges start their classes, this girl (who had picked a different college than me) waited for me at the train station of where I live after I finished my day and acted as if us meeting was a coincidence. She also told me how she was thinking of changing to my college and asked me to go with her to see my college on the next week, to which I agreed.
The 13th of september she waited for me at the train station (this time for going to our colleges) and we sat next to each other during almost an hour until I arrived to my college. It was very fucking uncomfortable because we didnt say anything almost the whole ride because I was very shy.
A few days within the week (in the day of her birthday casually) , I decided to tell her through whatsapp to cancel that going to my college shit because I was very shy since I knew it kinda was like a date and she wasnt the girl I liked in the first place. She told me no problem and after that we didnt talk anymore. I didnt even say happy birthday lol.
After this incident I thought I would have more chances to get a girlfriend and a social life in college if I wanted to I wouldnt have much trouble, but after that day I havent had the chance to speak to anyone other than my mother for more than 60 seconds.
I kinda mentioned this in the *****.life forum once, and today I dreamed about this I dont know why. Since Im a shut in I've lost a lot of my libido and my need to socialize, but sometimes I have these weird dreams that make me change my mind until I wake up.
