Depression The price I have to pay...

[Gaku]

I am getting better at chess, and man, it's scary. This obsession to improve is taking parts of me away. Honestly, I hardly showered in a week, there are disgusting pimples on my face, my skin is oily and greasy. My room is almost filled with trash and piss bottles. My sleep schedule is completely crap, nothing matters any more. I wake up and consume around 9+ hours of chess whilst playing an ungodly amount of bullet games. It's unhealthy, I even started dreaming about chess, havent given into porn for around 2+ weeks because i'm just too busy consuming and getting better at chess. Seems like a win, but it's taking me away from humanity. My mind automatically thinks about chess positions every 2 minutes. I feel like a robot, they no longer call me a noob they started saying I'm cheating, it's different. A lot of local tournaments coming up, I want to conquer and neet on the cash prize. Seems like a way out until I try to find another job. Wish me luck.

 

[Schizo]

Maybe look into chess rule34 or something

 

[Deleted member 1862]

take hans niemann course u will start raping GMs

@The Doctor

 

[Gaku]

take hans niemann course u will start raping GMs

@The Doctor

I might just buy his course on chessable mehn, he's not the best, but I can learn a thing or two from him. Hopefully not his ego.

 

[Unemployed]

I am getting better at chess, and man, it's scary. This obsession to improve is taking parts of me away. Honestly, I hardly showered in a week, there are disgusting pimples on my face, my skin is oily and greasy. My room is almost filled with trash and piss bottles. My sleep schedule is completely crap, nothing matters any more.

Wow. Imagine putting this much effort into learning something useful. You’d become a modern-day Da Vinci. Mirin!