hikikomori
Elmo rules the world!
- Jun 16, 2023
- 4,533
I was talking with my therapist today and he was doing questions like if I was suicidal and if I had any suicidal thoughts the past 6 months.
he asked me if I had any plans, or intentions of committing suicide,
I told him I did have suicidal thoughts and ideation and that I only was only going to rope if I didn’t get approved for neetbux.
he then told me I needed to be hospitalized for a wellness check or he would force me there via involuntary commitment because of my intentions on roping. he spoke with my parent but then this is where he started bullshitting, he told them I was actively trying to kill myself, that I needed to be in a ward, instead of just having suicidal ideation. I called him a liar.
he didn’t like how I called him a liar and said it was a misunderstanding. He told me I was a black & white thinker (autistic trait )
i told him I think trying to be a fucking chameleon and mimic behaviors that come naturally to others is pathetic and something I refuse to do. he doesn’t like how I refuse to actually be treated with CBT because I won’t let him do his job as therapist, lol. I shut down anything he suggests like group therapy.
this literally makes zero sense to me. why the fuck would I try and resist the behavior that comes naturally to me and instead trying to turn myself into something I’m not, even if said behavior is “maladaptive“, which honestly it is, but I don’t care bc I refuse to be uncomfortable and jestermaxx for normies.
tbh I don’t even fuck with these shrinks any more they are all FUCKING RETARDED. I kept telling them about my condition, which is very rare, but they keeping getting it confused with other shit and don’t know a damn thing about personality disorders.
this may be incomprehensible to many of you but my preferred lifestyle is one of perpetual isolation while at the same time not having to do anything (social interaction in particular) to earn money. I want to be a hermit.
the path for this is neetbux.
he asked me if I had any plans, or intentions of committing suicide,
I told him I did have suicidal thoughts and ideation and that I only was only going to rope if I didn’t get approved for neetbux.
he then told me I needed to be hospitalized for a wellness check or he would force me there via involuntary commitment because of my intentions on roping. he spoke with my parent but then this is where he started bullshitting, he told them I was actively trying to kill myself, that I needed to be in a ward, instead of just having suicidal ideation. I called him a liar.
he didn’t like how I called him a liar and said it was a misunderstanding. He told me I was a black & white thinker (autistic trait )
i told him I think trying to be a fucking chameleon and mimic behaviors that come naturally to others is pathetic and something I refuse to do. he doesn’t like how I refuse to actually be treated with CBT because I won’t let him do his job as therapist, lol. I shut down anything he suggests like group therapy.
this literally makes zero sense to me. why the fuck would I try and resist the behavior that comes naturally to me and instead trying to turn myself into something I’m not, even if said behavior is “maladaptive“, which honestly it is, but I don’t care bc I refuse to be uncomfortable and jestermaxx for normies.
tbh I don’t even fuck with these shrinks any more they are all FUCKING RETARDED. I kept telling them about my condition, which is very rare, but they keeping getting it confused with other shit and don’t know a damn thing about personality disorders.
this may be incomprehensible to many of you but my preferred lifestyle is one of perpetual isolation while at the same time not having to do anything (social interaction in particular) to earn money. I want to be a hermit.
the path for this is neetbux.
