Venting Thinking about working and being around normies fills me with anxiety

[Skoga]

I'm a disabled (diagnosed) autist (self diagnosed), and my life consists of vidya and anime. Being alone in my apartment and pursuing my hobbies is my comfort zone and distracts me from things like depression, existential crisis, forever being alone, things like that

Aquiring neetbuxx in my country comes with a responsibility to attending courses to help you with finding a job, and when you're not in a course at the moment you need to send in job applications yourself and send the proof to your jobcenter

I have been in somewhat of a therapy in the past and all they did was put me on anti depression meds and said I was good to go. Thats why I didnt bother trying to get diagnosed with autism. I'm 100% on the spectrum, I never had friends irl, I don't understand peoples feelings, I am easily entertained and an extreme minimalist

Even if you're diagnosed with autism you still have to look for jobs so it wouldnt do shit. I also have another disability which makes my eyesight very bad and I have tunnelvision, I'm also photophobic (always have been), and I can't see in the dark

Why do subhuman freaks with inferior genetics like me still have to contribute to society? I hate it so much, just give me my neetbuxx and let me rot in peace... there's nothing "fixable" about me and I will always try my hardest to stay in my confort zone, I am just one in a million so why go out of your fucking way to try to make me even more miserable and suicidal by forcing me into a job?? I hate this fucking society

 

[polishcel]

literally me except the disabled part

 

[Skoga]

literally me except the disabled part

Being disabled gives me one more excuse not to work so I'm actually blessed

 

[polishcel]

Being disabled gives me one more excuse not to work so I'm actually blessed

i envy you

 

[Skoga]

i envy you

I still get harassed by my jobcenter... just a bit less than before my disability got officially diagnosed

 

[lünin7]

We never had a chance

They taught me to believe everything every other normie believed but I’m not a normie

 

[scizoCrashout]

I'm a disabled (diagnosed) autist (self diagnosed), and my life consists of vidya and anime. Being alone in my apartment and pursuing my hobbies is my comfort zone and distracts me from things like depression, existential crisis, forever being alone, things like that

Aquiring neetbuxx in my country comes with a responsibility to attending courses to help you with finding a job, and when you're not in a course at the moment you need to send in job applications yourself and send the proof to your jobcenter

I have been in somewhat of a therapy in the past and all they did was put me on anti depression meds and said I was good to go. Thats why I didnt bother trying to get diagnosed with autism. I'm 100% on the spectrum, I never had friends irl, I don't understand peoples feelings, I am easily entertained and an extreme minimalist

Even if you're diagnosed with autism you still have to look for jobs so it wouldnt do shit. I also have another disability which makes my eyesight very bad and I have tunnelvision, I'm also photophobic (always have been), and I can't see in the dark

Why do subhuman freaks with inferior genetics like me still have to contribute to society? I hate it so much, just give me my neetbuxx and let me rot in peace... there's nothing "fixable" about me and I will always try my hardest to stay in my confort zone, I am just one in a million so why go out of your fucking way to try to make me even more miserable and suicidal by forcing me into a job?? I hate this fucking society

Blaming it all on your sickness? Hiding in a dark room full of video games and anime will fuck up your gene code. Now your natural survival enviroment is dark anime filled room. so of course you will feel anixety being dropped into an unnatural unfamiliar place. it isnt your "natural habitat" as much advice as i can give its all up to you and you will need slow exposure like walks and interactions outside of online places..

muh its up to you.