Utterly devastated over how my life turned out

Thadman

Thadman

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Sep 6, 2023
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My life has been a horror show devoid of anything good outside of a few blips of glory here and there, otherwise its just been constant pain and emptiness for me. Even the most depressed person reminisces on how great and blissful their childhood was but I didn't experience any of that, even during childhood I was depressed and stuck in life just sat in front of the tv or computer screen all day instead of playing outside or exploring the world like normal kids do. I genuinely had no clue that kids played outside with each other after school so you can figure

As of now I just rot at home all day depressed and scrolling meaningless shit on google or youtube, when I try to do something positive or be less of a garbage human being my being ends up shoving me right back into the dark hole. I have nothing to offer to anyone so no one really wants to befriend me and I cant complain because there is not a single thing of value I have to offer. And these are not some typical adulthood blues, even as a 3rd grader I was exactly the same as I am now.
 
Riddler

Riddler

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Oct 18, 2023
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Ngl I was just thinking the same thing

Feels like this life is some cosmic joke where God was trying to see how much suffering one nigga can take

As you say horror shows I can't even enjoy the typical "literally me" sad boy Ryan gosling characters. Movies anime and such can't really depict true misery, an actual living nightmare and unending hell

My only cope is books characters that depict true misery beyond repair like elric of melnibone, jude st Francis, sand dan glokta. Irreparably broken and pathetic men

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Disorder

Disorder

Why the world gotta be like this?
Nov 29, 2020
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Scratch that people actually like watching horror shows because they are entertaining and have value, I dont my "life" is utterly drab and miserable through and throughout
Yeah, each day is the same as the last, spent trying to numb our minds best we can, it's a miserable way to live. I was referencing this btw:

My life is a b list horror movie. When I die I will be completely forgotten. I'm the man starring from a distance. Admiring your pawg. I'm the man who never even existed. I'm the man who wanted to give his love to a roastie but was never reciprocated
 
Thadman

Thadman

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I feel ya. Pretty sure I've spent most of my life watching random videos lol. Doesn't cause me grief though; it's quite comfy.
Same here just watching youtube or browsing through random articles, as a kid adults around me were shocked at the kind of info I knew about and took interest in. Browsing the deepest depths of the internet as a small child instead of exploring the world around you does that

Everytime I managed to get something good going for me I would fuck it up somehow or do some dumb shit to burn bridges with others, we really cant have anything good
 
incelkingkong

incelkingkong

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Nov 28, 2020
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My life is a b list horror movie. When I die I will be completely forgotten. I'm the man starring from a distance. Admiring your pawg. I'm the man who never even existed. I'm the man who wanted to give his love to a roastie but was never reciprocated
who wrote this
 
Thadman

Thadman

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Sep 6, 2023
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Ngl I was just thinking the same thing

Feels like this life is some cosmic joke where God was trying to see how much suffering one nigga can take

As you say horror shows I can't even enjoy the typical "literally me" sad boy Ryan gosling characters. Movies anime and such can't really depict true misery, an actual living nightmare and unending hell

My only cope is books characters that depict true misery beyond repair like elric of melnibone, jude st Francis, sand dan glokta. Irreparably broken and pathetic men
Travis Bickle in taxi driver really resonates hard, he will live the rest of his life in misery and sadness driving around the streets all day and getting caught up in bad situations. He came from being some nyc cabbie war veteran with PTSD living in a roach complex to trying to assassinate some politician and murdering a prostitute, its a bit similar to the fucked up impulsive shit or bad situations we got ourselves caught up in with our stupidity.
 
Thadman

Thadman

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Sep 6, 2023
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My life is a b list horror movie. When I die I will be completely forgotten. I'm the man starring from a distance. Admiring your pawg. I'm the man who never even existed. I'm the man who wanted to give his love to a roastie but was never reciprocated
Witnessing users like neetgod, zangano, anon, celtic, etc etc is utterly depressing because you realise that some magic breakthrough which transforms your life will likely never come. Heck some users have constantly been rotting here for the past 4 years despite likely thinking this forum would be temporary, 4 YEARS!
 
Thadman

Thadman

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same except i read pirated books instead of bingewatching yt as i cannot stand corporate content so its impossible for me to watch jewtube and the likes for longer than 10 mins it causes literal pain in me
YT back in 2009-2011 was different, although it was getting more and more corporatized but you still had decent content. I dont touch that place anymore outside of listening to music or watching sports related shit

Ye, I always have neets.net to lift my spirits and I got nothing else going on for me in life so no reason to quit imo
We would lose much more by quitting compared to staying stuck here, there is no where else on the internet for the likes of us to dwell around in. Before joining .net I was looking for a decent community to stay in for the past 2 years
 
Riddler

Riddler

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Oct 18, 2023
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Witnessing users like neetgod, zangano, anon, celtic, etc etc is utterly depressing because you realise that some magic breakthrough which transforms your life will likely never come. Heck some users have constantly been rotting here for the past 4 years despite likely thinking this forum would be temporary, 4 YEARS!
Even if someone joined the forum recently they were probably in adjacent spaces for years in end

I've spoken to people who joined org late 2023 but were on lookosm 2015

I think @Moondust is a case like that

the faceandlms guy is a puahate vet but apparently he only rots on discord now
 
Thadman

Thadman

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Even if someone joined the forum recently they were probably in adjacent spaces for years in end

I've spoken to people who joined org late 2023 but were on lookosm 2015

I think @Moondust is a case like that

the faceandlms guy is a puahate vet but apparently he only rots on discord now
Thats near a decade, that is insane. Even imagining using this forum in 2030 is suicide inducing
 
vandrende lik

vandrende lik

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Nov 14, 2023
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YT back in 2009-2011 was different, although it was getting more and more corporatized but you still had decent content. I dont touch that place anymore outside of listening to music or watching sports related shit


We would lose much more by quitting compared to staying stuck here, there is no where else on the internet for the likes of us to dwell around in. Before joining .net I was looking for a decent community to stay in for the past 2 years
most channels where i live are just lame imitations of the popular yank content tailored to the local populace theyre boring unimaginative etc the american section is just as boring but at least its not copied from somewhere else
 
Moondust

Moondust

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Nov 8, 2023
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Witnessing users like neetgod, zangano, anon, celtic, etc etc is utterly depressing because you realise that some magic breakthrough which transforms your life will likely never come. Heck some users have constantly been rotting here for the past 4 years despite likely thinking this forum would be temporary, 4 YEARS!
Transform your life in what way? Getting laid? I got a job for the first time after being on psl for 5 years, that was a transformation for me. Altho it was mainly out of necessity. Before that I was paranoid that i wud never be able to get s job

Also this is exactly what i said the other day lol, you're always trying to drag everyone down. Your bullshit is actually singlehandedly making me consider quitting the forum
 
Moondust

Moondust

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Nov 8, 2023
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Ye, I always have neets.net to lift my spirits and I got nothing else going on for me in life so no reason to quit imo
There's posters like @Thadman saying peoples lives will never get better and this place "lifts your spirits"? Lmao
 
Moondust

Moondust

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Nov 8, 2023
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Yeah, each day is the same as the last, spent trying to numb our minds best we can, it's a miserable way to live. I was referencing this btw:

My life is a b list horror movie. When I die I will be completely forgotten. I'm the man starring from a distance. Admiring your pawg. I'm the man who never even existed. I'm the man who wanted to give his love to a roastie but was never reciprocated
Boo hoo im an attractive dude :'(. Wtf do you have to numb yourself about šŸ¤£
 
Moondust

Moondust

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Nov 8, 2023
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"even during childhood I was depressed and stuck in life just sat in front of the tv or computer screen all day instead of playing outside or exploring the world like normal kids do"

Wait wat? All kids play games and watch TV lol, especially your generation, gen z. A lot of my best memories are games I played and stuff I watched

I played outside and did screen time both as a kid. Screen time mogged going outside as a kid tbh

Is there anyone on this forum who actually has it bad lol
 
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EternalKaczor

EternalKaczor

Its over
Sep 27, 2021
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>Born in a poor family in EE
>Be dragged to Western Europe as a kid by my mom
>Be bullied in school for being shy and non-NT
>Drop out of High school
>NEET for 3+ years
>20 year Old High school drop out
Thats me
 
Moondust

Moondust

NEET
Nov 8, 2023
6,083
>Born in a poor family in EE
>Be dragged to Western Europe as a kid by my mom
>Be bullied in school for being shy and non-NT
>Drop out of High school
>NEET for 3+ years
>20 year Old High school drop out
Thats me
Why'd u drop out? Cuz of the bullying?
 
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