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Deleted member 2099
Hard work kills!
- Mar 29, 2024
- 951
I am only calm when I'm thinking about cbting I'm severely anxious if I'm not.
I think about my family finding me, I think about my friends, my brother out of state hearing about it, my partner finding out. It's so soothing, to think sometime soon I'll be gone, I won't be here and there's nothing anyone could do. I think going back to school, would deter for a little bit not for long enough though. I really miss my older brother, if there is an after life we'll see each other, drawing him and treating him like he's still in this miserable world some way isn't helping.
I'm thinking after to this concert I'm seeing with my aunt is a perfect time, so she has a good memory of me. We're going at the end of the month, she's giving me her old cds of this band.
Don't care what my mom thinks much, nor my dad. They're both the type of people I despise. They ruined my brother who lives with me, along with me.
My only fear about this, is my brother who lives with me finding me. I rather my mom open the door to me unresponsive than him. I'll clean my room nicely the day I do, put a CD in and let everything fade out with me.
I'm using SN as my method, I'll say it a billion times over, I just need to save up the money for it. It's easy access for me, not too pricey for a 10lb bag either.
I think about my family finding me, I think about my friends, my brother out of state hearing about it, my partner finding out. It's so soothing, to think sometime soon I'll be gone, I won't be here and there's nothing anyone could do. I think going back to school, would deter for a little bit not for long enough though. I really miss my older brother, if there is an after life we'll see each other, drawing him and treating him like he's still in this miserable world some way isn't helping.
I'm thinking after to this concert I'm seeing with my aunt is a perfect time, so she has a good memory of me. We're going at the end of the month, she's giving me her old cds of this band.
Don't care what my mom thinks much, nor my dad. They're both the type of people I despise. They ruined my brother who lives with me, along with me.
My only fear about this, is my brother who lives with me finding me. I rather my mom open the door to me unresponsive than him. I'll clean my room nicely the day I do, put a CD in and let everything fade out with me.
I'm using SN as my method, I'll say it a billion times over, I just need to save up the money for it. It's easy access for me, not too pricey for a 10lb bag either.
