Venting Working made me realize (again) how much I hate being autistic

[joeveniro]

The unending feeling that everyone hates me ( for a reason, autism = instant freak ).
Doesn't matter how hard you try to appear as normal, people will still see you as a freak and misunderstand you.
And the even weirder feeling: I don't really mind being hated, I mind the thought of me thinking I'm hated/judged, kinda contradictory but I think some here will also understand it.
Like, imagine an hypothetical scenario where I know someone thinks I'm a freak: AWESOME! I feel relived, but now the thought that this someone >MIGHT< think I'm a freak is what gets me.
I'm glad that fortunately my workload is very minimal, I just wish I wasn't such a poor broke third-worlder and could afford to neetmax

 

[incelkingkong]

excerpt from the diaries of lonely loli mexican gooner

 

[poorcel]

what work

 

[joeveniro]

what work

Secret

 

[Hobbit]

My honest reaction:

 

[IGiveUp]

Are you formally diagnosed and recognized by the government as being autistic? I know others who work place knows their on the spectrum and they try to be as understanding as possible. They also give him little benefit like free public transportation

 

[joeveniro]

Are you formally diagnosed and recognized by the government as being autistic? I know others who work place knows their on the spectrum and they try to be as understanding as possible. They also give him little benefit like free public transportation

Nope, two different psychoanalistic or some shit said I was aspie for sure but then to be get the ''certification'' you are aspie I'd need to get more exhams and some other shit

 

[Deleted member 1545]

Autism is god