anon1822fourthacc
I want to be the richest man in Laos! I love Laos!
- Nov 25, 2022
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I've become very high functioning, seemingly normal (other than the fact that I never leave the house and spend 16 hours a day in front of a screen lmao).
But there's a reason why I spend all my time alone.
I used to be very, very sociable as a little kid. At first I couldn't look people in the eyes, like the first few minutes of meeting up with someone (when I was like ~5). But after I warmed up, I'd go HYPER, jumping around and being super excited.
Anyway, as I grew up my nature that wanted to be hyper and interact with people changed dramatically. Because obviously I was weird to other kids, and that lead to bullying and mocking. Well, maybe those are strong words, and it's not really other people's fault. I was just a weird hyper kid who said weird things, too honest and naive.
Eventually that turned into being so shy and reserved that I was super guarded and antisocial. It happened after I got burned time and time again. I learned that opening my mouth and being who I am leads to me being mocked hard.
Now that I think about it, that's when my depression started. Around ~12-13 years of age. When I was smart enough to understand that my ADHD, autism and weak body meant I was in for a tough life.
Whatever, I'm happy now. I love lying in bed in front of my laptop for 16 hours a day. Wouldn't change it for the world. Just thought it was interesting how it all snowballs. I can trace my rotting and antsocial behavior right now all the way back to my childhood.
But there's a reason why I spend all my time alone.
I used to be very, very sociable as a little kid. At first I couldn't look people in the eyes, like the first few minutes of meeting up with someone (when I was like ~5). But after I warmed up, I'd go HYPER, jumping around and being super excited.
Anyway, as I grew up my nature that wanted to be hyper and interact with people changed dramatically. Because obviously I was weird to other kids, and that lead to bullying and mocking. Well, maybe those are strong words, and it's not really other people's fault. I was just a weird hyper kid who said weird things, too honest and naive.
Eventually that turned into being so shy and reserved that I was super guarded and antisocial. It happened after I got burned time and time again. I learned that opening my mouth and being who I am leads to me being mocked hard.
Now that I think about it, that's when my depression started. Around ~12-13 years of age. When I was smart enough to understand that my ADHD, autism and weak body meant I was in for a tough life.
Whatever, I'm happy now. I love lying in bed in front of my laptop for 16 hours a day. Wouldn't change it for the world. Just thought it was interesting how it all snowballs. I can trace my rotting and antsocial behavior right now all the way back to my childhood.